I just can't.

[Zoe7]

Can you paint and get some of your feelings out in your art @The-red-centaur Sometimes I draw - usually just patterns but it helps me to focus on the here and now and not worry about other things going on in my life.

[Former-Member]

Hi there @The-red-centaur. I can see that you went to hospital last night. I am concerned that you say you're starting to feel a bit like you did last night so I would really encourage you to call one of the numbers below to stay safe. If you are in immediate danger please call 000 or attend hospital.

Lifeline: 13 11 14 or Crisis Chat
Suicide call back service: 1300 659 467 or online counselling
If in immediate danger: 000

I will send you an email too to checkin with you and talk a bit more about what you can do to keep yourself safe tonight.

[The-red-centaur]

@Zoe7 I'm currently going for a walk. I wanted get out of my room

[Zoe7]

That sounds like a great idea @The-red-centaur - get out and get some fresh air - it can do wonders for us when we are not feeling great. Do you think you will be able to get some sleep when you get back?

[Zoe7]

I hope your walk was good @The-red-centaur and helped clear your mind somewhat. I am heading offline for the night shortly but will check in with you tomorrow. Please call a helpline or get yourself back to hospital if you begin to feel the same as you did last night. We care about you here buddy and want to see you safe. Until tomorrow @The-red-centaur  Goodnight 

[Zoe7]

Hey @The-red-centaur Checking in to see how you are doing today. Did you manage to sleep after your walk?

[The-red-centaur]

@Zoe7 I slept pretty good.

Today's been bad. I saw my case manager but it didn't help. I would have been admitted but there's no beds in the state.

[Zoe7]

The stupid health system here sucks @The-red-centaur 

Have you got a plan on what you can do tonight to keep you distracted? Have you started any new paintings?

[The-red-centaur]

@Zoe7 I just tried playing some Xbox.
I haven't started any paintings and I really don't feel up for it tonight. I tried colouring but couldn't get into it.

[Zoe7]

I get how you have to be in the right headspace to paint or even colour in @The-red-centaur I have finally gotten back into my painting but it is slow going. There is a lot of blending to do and then the finer details when it dries - that will take time though. I am using oils for this one so although it leaves enough time in between sitting to adjust, it also takes time to dry for the details I want to add over the top. I have been doing it for around 18 months so another couple of week won't hurt lol

What is the plan for tonight buddy? More xbox?