I just can't.

[Zoe7]

I completely understand the motivation thing @The-red-centaur There are times when you can do one after the other and then there are the times when nothing seems to flow. I have been staring at the one painting for weeks and finally today did a little more of it. I might be able to do some more tonight - depends on how tired I am too. At lest now I have an image in my head and a direction I want to fo in with it.

[The-red-centaur]

I want to sh 😞

[Faith-and-Hope]

Hi @The-red-centaur ..... 👋

What can you do to distract yourself from that feeling ?  Can you grab an ink pen and draw something that you see ?

[The-red-centaur]

@Faith-and-Hope I was watching Netflix but gave up. I'm no good at drawing. Maybe colouring thoug

[The-red-centaur]

@Faith-and-Hope my hands would stop shaking so after a few min I just gave up. Also I have nerve damage in my hand which is made worse by the shaking.

[Faith-and-Hope]

Yep @The-red-centaur .... sounds good.

[Faith-and-Hope]

Sorry @The-red-centaur, that last comment was for the colouring in.  It didn’t post before when I first clicked on it ..... 

Maybe try tearing up some paper ?  Just anything to keep your hands busy and give you something else to think about .....

I am making a collage at the moment, tearing different paper into small sizes and glueing together a picture from them.  Would that interest you to try ?  You can use junk mail or anything for it .....

[The-red-centaur]

@Faith-and-Hope that collage sounds cool.

I think I might just try and sleep.

[Faith-and-Hope]

That’s a good move @The-red-centaur ..... well done.

[The-red-centaur]

I don't want to be like this. I hate myself. It hurts. The screaming is less but that just makes my own thoughts louder.
I'm sad.
I'm suicidal.
I'm giving up.
It hurts too much.