I can't articulate why I feel so average and depressed

[oceangirl]

@MDT Sorry to hear you're struggling with your feelings and also being depressed. I am feeling similar emotions too. One step at a time. In terms of dating- its up to you as welll - how quickly the relationship progresses or if at all. But keep in mind many of us feel insecure at the start of something new (relationship). I would say to be open and honest with her and be upfront with your expectations and what you want from the relationship- I hope you find a really nice girl.

Remember not to overthink things and make time for the people in your life that support you too and have some time for yourself too. Keep going Hams you're doing great. I am very proud of you.

[MDT]

i think there is a balance @ArtistZ
Give it time my friend. I'm striving to find such a balance

[MDT]

you're very kind @oceangirl
Thank you my friend and yeah. Just gotta keep a sharp mind hey

I hope you're well and today I was thinking about what you said - how everything I do adds up. Your wisdom is helping friend

[oceangirl]

@MDT Your welcome .Start visulizing the life you want to have. Because although we have time, life will go by quickly. Surround yourself with people that value you. 

I'm just waiting to see a Dr. I have not been in a good place. But I am working through it. 

[MDT]

Keep working throgu hit Mt friend @oceangirl
I have seen you grow as I have known you on here. You're inspiring us.
A lot has happened for you as well. Hope your dad is on the mend.
I forget, did you come up with a name for your new doggo?

I am just sitting down to coffee and croissant now. Feeling reflective this morning which is nice for a change I must say

[oceangirl]

@MDT Will do. And thank you for your kind words and feedback. My dad is improving each day. My new pup is called Millie.She is delightful. Glad to hear you're in a better place. 

[MDT]

Thanks @oceangirl
I am having trouble coming to terms with somethi NV about my experiences as a younger teen.
Not sure how to say it

[MDT]

Nite all

[MDT]

I've realised now that something happened to me that shouldn't not have when I was a younger teen.
This was entirely my fault. At that age I was very very impressionable. I will need to see my psych again soon to find some answers.
I am trying to balance what happened to me and why along with what I want now in life and where I want to go (wherever that is)

I feel empty and lost without love but also am afraid of vulnerability and being judged for my lack of experience. I get quite depressed about it.

I think I ruined a chance last night but I was also okay with that not happening as well but idk. It's not easy to try and figure this out

[ArtistZ]

Hey @MDT 

Hope you're okay ☕️
I'm here if you ever just need an ear 👍

Take care 🌸