Despair *potential trigger: abuse*

[Jacques]

@hiddenite, that is fantastic news, so from now on you go to a private treatment facility?  if so you may want to look up really good PTSD specialist's to help with the flashbacks.

i am so proud of you, the start of the week was a nightmare, the end of the week sand most problems are sorted,  the start of the week you could not see your doctor, now you have done it.  i am almost jumping out of my skin with exitement for you.

you are such a brave soul i can't wait too see what you are going to be able to achieve next week.  .  i will be on here for a few hours if you want to talk, here or friday feast, it is up to you.

Take Care My Angel

Jacques

[hiddenite]

Hey Jacques

you are correct I now am covered for private hospital.
I never want to go back to the public system.
Oh and dont forget that it would not have been possible without your help and support.

Jacques I will be eternally grateful for your help.

I feel I take so much from you and not helping you.
so if you need anything you only have to ask.
take care my friend
thank you for helping me fight
karen

[Jacques]

Karen, you have done so much for me already, since finding you again, my depression has lifted a little, i was in a lost state, you have given me a reason to think of something else.

Karen just hearing the smile through your writing is more than enough thanks for me.  you really deserve all the care and attention private cover can give you.

Don't worry about me, i have to fight on for mum,  my problems pale in comparison to yours, i am eternally greatful you are back in my life.

I will always be here to help you fight, as i know you will be their for me.

Jacques

[hiddenite]

Ah next week I will have a bigger challenge....

im sure i can think of something

[Jacques]

good for you, good to see you pushing yourself, (even when you don't want too),  remember i will be bside you holding your hand

[Jacques]

Hello @hiddenite,

just catching up with you about my day,  well i had to fix the front tap today, i managed to break the fitting, and it took me all day to fix, but i got their,  had to fix one of my mothers friends laptop,  but not much else going on,  how are you feeling today?  how is the weather? i hope you are in a bit better space this weekend,  i am so proud of you reaching out to @Former-Member with her court case, it is good to see you interacting with others here, it is one more step in your journey to recovery.

Take Care My Angel, rest up, Tomorrow is another day

Jacques

[Jacques]

Hi @hiddenite, (My Angel)

i just read a great post by @Appleblossom, about how to help you with your journey,  here is the link to it.  http://saneforums.org/t5/Our-experience-stories/14th-year-house-bound/td-p/22822/page/15  you might like to think about it,  it sounds like it would really help.

well not hearing from you, either things are not good again or things are great and you are now free and roaming, , seriously though my thoughts where with you yesterday and today, i hope all is going ok.  Not much to report, a quiet day today, just vegging out enjoying the sun and another beautiful day. 

Take Care My Angel, hope to hear from you soon.

Jacques

[hiddenite]

Just love it when I get home and my mother tells me that my children are better off without me.

for someone who struggles daily with their safety that is the last thing I beed to be told.

it confirms everything I fell that everyone would be better off if I just let go.

What reasons to fight I come up with nothing. ..
hopless , worthless. .....

im so exhausted from trying

why bother when im out of options.

[Ellie]

And this is just the time when you need to fight tooth and nail just to show her how wrong she is.

I've been a bit quiet on here of late, but I have been keeping up with your thread and am surprised at how resilient you can bee despite the obstacles placed in your way by life itself. I know you're an inspiration to me, so please keep that inspiration coming. You help others without even realising it.

Stay strong my girl,

Ellie.

[Baboo]

Well said Ellie, i could not have typed it better myself.

Hiddenight, you are a wonderfully strong person. Brush those harsh opinions off your shoulders ey. On ward and upward- no matter how small your steps are