Changing meds

[WIP]

My GP has written 3 detailed open referrals to other establishments -

im just waiting to see if any pdocs are taking on new clients. The problem is the good ones have their books closed at the moment due to being so busy, the other have a wait list of ar least 6 weeks.  

It's such a very long wait when you're in so much pain with no hope @Appleblossom 

[Appleblossom]

I hope the DBT practises provide you with more hope.

Not sure if this helps.

  @WIP 

[Eve7]

I have just printed this and now it’s in my bedroom. I’m so sorry your day is hard, keep pushing forward...you’re a winner.

[WIP]

Thanks @Appleblossom 

That's a big part of the problem - I am on my own. No one to simply be there, give me a comforting hug. No word needed, just to b there to lt m kno I'm supported.

LL & SCBS both useless tonight. I can't write here what I'm truely feeling, so going to try & rest. If the tears stop flowing that is. I'm in so much pain 

thanks @Appleblossom @Eve7  for your encouraging pics.

[Appleblossom]

Yes @WIP 

If I go too much into ALL the feelings in my heart I might ex ...or  im ... plode. So best I do not talk about it all the time.

I turned to the forums to try and do something of value and gain a little from sharing.  Mostly I am still alone.  One of things I did learn, is that most peple are alone in many important ways, and not to see myself as abberrant as many people pretend to be happier than they are .... not for being fake ... just for a whole complexity of things ... about being social beings.

[Former-Member]

I'm sorry to hear that you're in such pain right now @WIP. It's been a really tough day for you. I hope you are able to get some rest tonight and that things look a little better after.

[WIP]

I'm sorry @Appleblossom  Im not understanding exactly what you are trying to help me to do.

are you saying it's better to not talk about my feelings on the forum so much. The last thing I want to do is make others uncomfortable or push them away, so I'm very sorry for doing so.

Ultimately I am very alone and the pain is unbearable. I'll try to keep to myself more from now on. x

[Appleblossom]

No  Please dont internalise what I said. I did not mean it that way. @WIP 

For me personally ...  if I unpack too much ... its harder.

Really I meant no harm

Apple

[Emelia8]

I'm pretty sure @WIP that that is not what @Appleblossom is suggesting at all 🌷

I personally think its very helpful to talk about our feelings, and the forums are a perfect place to do that.

At no point have you ever made me feel uncomfortable, or felt pushed away. 

Please L, dont retreat. We need you here, every bit as much as you need us.

Emelia 💞🐶😄

Edit ... I note Apple has posted while I was doing a response. Thanks for elaborating Apple. 🌸

[WIP]

Thank you @Appleblossom @Emelia8 

im not thinking straight and hyper sensitive to things, so I'm sorry if I made you feel uncomfortable and interpreted things incorrectly.

I treasure both your advice and wisdom very much. Thank you!!❤️