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you are likeable and loveable @TheVorticon , everyone is, you deserve to be liked and loved, everyone does.
I have dysfuntional attachments and find friendships quite stressful... question loyalty, feel rejected, feel insecure, worrry I am needy. But my main strategy is to not have all my eggs in one basket. My closest friend has recently pulled away from me & become distant without any explanaiton. I asked her if I'd done anything to offend her & she replied no but then continued to cut off from me. It's pretty distressing. But I am trying to stay true to my strategy & went to a meetup on the weekend & met some new people, they were really cool so I'm glad I did it.
I think the intensity with your therapist would be helped if you spread your feelings out amongst more attachments and friendship - try to make some new friends. At least that's what I have found helpful, it just gives me more options, more people to make me feel happy, I'm not just at the mercy of one person who I'm deeply attached to.
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@TheVorticon I just wanted to let you know that the stuff I went through with this was definitely in the weird, definitely in the attachment/needy/ fear of abandonment and hugely in the shame box. For me it wasn’t just with therapists but it happened with a lecturer I really respected too and I think various other people throughout my life. I ended up in a huge mess with it. I became paranoid and the fear of abandonment became so huge and with that the shame. For me the fear of abandonment and stuff related to my psychologist became self fulfilling and ended with me having a pretty reasonable attempt on my life outside her office. I had tried to talk about my messed upness about it that session.
I’m probably way off the mark for what you are going through but thought you were brave for starting this topic and I’m trying to return the brave. Take care.
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10-07-2019 07:13 AM
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Just wanted to say sorry to hear about the situation with your friend @BryanaCamp. I hope that it ends up getting resolved, and it's good that you have other people to spend time with.
I don't think I'm meant to have proper friends. But even still, my weirdness is something I need to deal with myself and not inflict on others.
There's not a good enough reason for me to be the way I am. I'm just too weak and sensitive and being a baby. People like me shouldn't be allowed to talk to anyone.
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Hi @TheVorticon
So much of your posts on this thread resonate strongly with me.
except that last bit about nobody talking to you.
I use to double think and triple thunk everything thang thung ...
Yes close attachments can be very intense. The therapuetic attachment especially intense becasue it is about ALL our stuff.
Part of it is in the managing of it and the authenticity of the counsellor.
I was so stuck on my first big 1 -1 psychiatrist for about 10 years. It was not healthy but it was all I had ... then I did the @BryanaCamp thing and diversified and took family to a family therapy place ... that really anchored me ... it was the better thing for me ..
I had studied a fair bit of theory at uni (1990)... but emotionally over invested in the pdoc dude ... no point beating myself about it ...now ... it did keep me alive ... through my most difficult years ... he also did not medicate me which I am grateful for ... then there is the gender and cross gender stuff ... that was how I detached myself from him ... cos he was very human and had his faults ...
14-07-2019 07:55 AM
14-07-2019 07:55 AM
Thanks for sharing that @Appleblossom.
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I think I'm probably just lonely, but it's pathetic as all hell for me to be feeling that.
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