im back..... i think

[Owlunar]

Hi @outlander

I am glad you have an appointment in the morning and hope you can hold on untill then - but it does sound as if you have a plan

I don't have anyone to take me any where either - so I understand - my daughter works and her job is important - and I am older now - and I can take it alone - but I still feel hurt when people ask me have I got someone to take me and I have to say "No" -

I take holidays alone - and people ask me who I am going with - d'uh - alone - I have travelled alone since my kids got past it - I fly and take long train trips and enjoy it - and with my back I take time to get going in the morning and tend to find the nights the time when I am active - so being alone works for me

But you are young yet - but not a baby because you are so alone with all of this - it is really tough stuff - and I could give your mother the hard eye - but most likely that wouldn't help

Squeeze on the hands - I am the old pixar owl on your shoulder - I want an avatar of a pixar owl - I feel like the pixar owl

This Forum Family is your soft and safe place to land - we are invisible but we are here - and most of all - we care

Dec

[outlander]

@Owlunar Im using the hot water bottles trick you suggested but my stomach still feels really tight and its growling at me.
Im too scared to say im going to another gp appointment. I can only imagine the reaction id get. Ooohh

Oh maybe this isn't a good idea. What if its something bad and i have to go to hospital. Thats not good uh uh and im scared @Owlunar actually im terrified and the hot water bottles dont seem to be helping too much either.
I feel like a baby asking for help and having to hold your hand even vitually. Youd think id have learnt to grow up by now but im so scared.
I was scared i was imagining all this pain

You should change your avatar pic to the owl then

[outlander]

@Owlunar are you still with me?

[Owlunar]

Oh dear @outlander

I do understand - look - you are not looking for pain medication so telling another doctor you are looking for a second or third appointment is normal - people have to do this at times - I have had to do it

When I had normal periods for years and suddenly they got really bad - and stayed bad - I found my own doctor unhelpful and I got the phone book and found another one and rang the staff there and told them I needed another opinion and I went there that day and the doctor I saw was very understanding and referred me to a surgeon straight away and yes - I had a hysterectomy that I needed badly

So yes - that is perfectly okay - to have second or third opinions

Also - the pain is real - you cannot imagine pain like that - but I have had enough pain myself to know that pain can make itself worse through stress - and not being understood nor taken seriously is going to add to the stress that is already over the top - so get that

All of the things that have happened to you have left a mark on you - left a wound - right from the beginning - in time this can heal but it will leave a scar - and what about surgery?

This must scare the daylights out of you - I know when I had to have my appendix out I was sh^t scared too - freaked out - but too young then to make up jokes and keep people laughing the way I do now

It takes us all our life-time to become as mature as we get - you are so young yet - you can hang onto my hand - you are not a baby - you are a woman who is very much alone and the only people who understand are a faceless bunch of women who are sharing with you and really care - possibly care more than anyone has before in your life

And it has not helped that you have had to do some much physical work when you have been so ill - yes - we are all told to get up and we will feel better - but in truth - there are times when we all need to take it easy

Care heaps

Dec

[outlander]

Its not my gp im worried about @Owlunar its if um suck enough to have to call my mother 😯

Im absolutely terrified. Im tired but i cant sleep. Im in pain and i feel sick. I cant study anymore tonight. Its stopped sinking in. I dont have much energy either
Yes the people on here are more caring that what im use to

I just feel likr a big baby

[Former-Member]

You can hold my hand anytime @outlander, scaly shrivelled old things that they are. Like Dec says, virtual squeezes don't cause any pain, but I still believe my Mum - if you virtually squeeze hard enough, we can take a little bit of it for you. I'm glad your getting into the Doctor tomorrow and think it's a good thing that it's before your exam, I can't imagine it would help you focus on your test if you still felt like this.

That's a complicated course your doing, I only read through a dozen pages or so of your study thread - it was way beyond me. Your a very intelligent young person! I hope your able to get some rest. I'm going to lay my body down soon. Good night Outlander, peace be with you

[Owlunar]

Hi @outlander

Your excuse for a mother needs to know - she needs to be told by a professional person who has investigated your situation and made a dx or is looking for one

Stop trying to study and try and get some rest - get the hot water bottles filled again and get as comfortable as you can - maybe watch TV and keep working your phone or IPAD - stay in touch if it helps

Yes - we care here - we can replace the part of you that needs the care and for ourselves - we need to care too - so we do

We have all felt like big babies at times - I have read this a lot in this forum - I have felt like it myself - so if you want to - feel like a big baby and hang onto my hand

Dec

[outlander]

Ok @Former-Member ill share with you and @Owlunar but only the tinest bit

@Owlunar remind me not to move. Im back in bed now and thats where im staying either here or on the floor. My back even hurts and is tender so im putting a hot water bottles on that too though i am starting to get pretty hot with all this heat

I cant sleep anyway but ill be holding just enough onto you and niqueeta

[Owlunar]

Sounds like a plan - I have found the floor a safe and comfortable place at times

And only share what you are comfortable with

Dec

[outlander]

Ill share my floor or my bed whichever one im in with you but i don't really want to share pain you have endured enough yourself @Owlunar ❤