im back..... i think

[utopia]

@outlander. Sorry I fell asleep again. Have had a few rough days. Glad others were on here for you.
I like what @Phoenix_Rising wrote. Concentrate on a positive saying. Like: I did it. I overcame my fears. I'm looking after me now. After my health.
I'm veey proud of what you have achieved today. Sending a big hug. ♥

[Former-Member]

Please don't feel guilty asking for support on here @outlander 💕
I'm happy to try and be here for you, sometimes I might be busy or resting.
It's ok to ask.
Have to get my girl now

[outlander]

i honestly didnt realise how much ive done today until i wrote a list and that was
1. get kids ready for school
2. take them to school
3. take mums boyfriend to work
4. go to gp
5. do one of my other jobs which is horse holiday care so i had to feed brush rug clean water troughs and then go from there
6. pick my sister up form school as she felt sick and she puked but now she feels better since doing thatas it was somethin we ate last night and mums sick too
7. feed our animals- bird, dog, rabbit and do our horses
8. pick up my other sister from school
THEN i have half hour then
9.  go pick up mum boyfriend form work
10. get dinner read
11. get kids ready for school tomorrow
12.  give the house a tidy up
13. i need to get some sort of study in and then go to bed an start the day again

@Owlunar@Former-Member@utopia

[outlander]

yes @Phoenix_Rising im trying to stay positive im just so busy i cant thnk straight and still ahve so much to do see above list lol. i have my gp tomorrow so again i think ill be needing to dot he positive thinking

@utopia thats ok its really understandable. i hope your doing a little bit better today? the reason i got theses tests done wernt becasue of my past casue if i thought that was i would throw up so i decided to just keep thinking its for my health- i need to do it for my health and wellbeing so thats what ive been focusing on

@Former-Member i know your always with me in my heart and holding my hand when i need to but i also know that your struggling yourself and you need to look after you first

[Pepsimax]

@outlander what a day you've had you do a lot for everyone I'm thinking of you Pepsimax

[outlander]

@Pepsimax thank you little lady bird your always in my thoughts too and im always with you even if i cant reply sometimes.

yes a very busy day but at least i got the tests done and i can breathe sort of until i see my nurse in 2 weeks to get the results. i couldve sent them to my gp but id rather my nurse.

i feel kind of awkward there in the gp practice now though- knowing shes been sticking her fingers in places- not the most pleasant encounter

 does anyone else feel like that? @Owlunar@utopia@Former-Member@Pepsimax@Former-Member@Faith-and-Hope

[Shaz51]

thank you @outlander xx

I slept better last night , going to check with the doctor tomorrow to see if I have a infection or not

[utopia]

@outlander. I've given birth - so I've had a heap of different things probing my private region. Lol. Once you have a baby - nothing embarrasses you again. Birthing is extremely embarrassing - but they see it all everyday.
And nothing that the nurse saw today is any different from what she has seen thousands of times before.
Try not to think of it as specific body parts. Think of it purely as you had tests done and will get the results soon.

[outlander]

lol @utopia ok ill try to think of it that way 2 weeks to go and in that time i will ahve finished my study exam as well as thats next wednesday  so itll probably go quickly. - yes ive heard giving birth is quite embarassing- thank god im not planning that any time soon or EVER

@Shaz51 im glad your getting to your gp, im really hoping its not an infection

[Shaz51]

im really hoping its not an infection-- me too @outlander xx