Support for Flowerlove22

[Dreamy]

Hello @Sunnyside226, hope your day has been ok, I've been thinking of you. Apologies for not replying, I've been in a pretty crappy headspace so I've been a bit quiet on the forums.

I really do understand that all too well. The only time I'll laugh is if you split your pants doing a crazy tiktok dance or stack it on a skateboard, but then I'll be laughing with you and of course I'll make sure you're ok first 😂.

I went to kmart today, I may or may not have brought some stitch stickers 😂. 

Haha, hopefully she gets your hints. Oh gees over $200, crazy 😂. 

Tomorrow i really need to take some pics of Casper and my Christmas tree to share here. Oh I can't wait to show you hehe. 

[Sunnyside226]

@PeppyPatti @Dreamy 

Thanks for everything your both done 

I am thinking of deleting my account tomorrow. 

It's to do with me and my thoughts ATM 

I think I will have to email a @moderator  tomorrow  I can't remember 

Wish you both the best  and aunty glow too 

[Dreamy]

@Sunnyside226 I'm sorry to hear this but know that we will always support you no matter what you decide to do. 

I always love our chats together and how we share a love for stitch. 

I'm sorry that things are so hard for you at the moment. I truly wish nothing but the best for you my friend ❤️.

[Sunnyside226]

I'm sorry @Dreamy   

I know you  love our chats  I do too 

I failed my family  I've failed to  keep them safe. I've failed myself. 

Everything feels so so Heavy at this point I feel like I'm just existing. 

This isn't a goodbye forever it's just for a while. 

[Dreamy]

@Sunnyside226 i hear you sweet. 

But know you haven't failed, not at all. Just sometimes life gets really hard and bad things happen, but unfortunately they are often out of our control. 

I understand that feeling, that heaviness and the just existing. I know it's so hard to sit with but you're not alone, we are here with you.

Please try to be gentle with your wonderful self, you've been through alot and your feelings are so valid. 

It's ok to take some time for yourself and when/if you decide to come back we will be here. Sending you hugs my friend ❤️

[NightPixie]

Hey @Sunnyside226,

It sounds like you have plans to delete your account as a temporary break from the SANE Forums. It's totally okay to want or need a break, but know that whatever you decide to do, the SANE community is here for you 🤗

You share that you have failed to keep your family safe, and I'm not 100% sure what you are referring to there, but we can see that @Dreamy has shared some lovely support and understanding with you around this 🌼 And I want to re-affirm what they shared in that sometimes life can get really tough and often the things that make it tough are out of our control.

If you do decide to take time away from SANE, know that you can still reach out to supports like Lifeline and Beyond Blue 📞

Take care of yourself 🍃

[PeppyPatti]

Hi @Sunnyside226 

I’m sitting with you : I remember I left sane forums for 5 years : do whatever fits for you @Sunnyside226 

iv really liked being friends and really hope you come back. It’s hard sometimes sweetheart. 

@tyme @NightPixie @Dreamy @AuntGlow @TAB @Bill16 

[Sunnyside226]

Hey @NightPixie 

What I mean  is. Both parents are dead. Mates have died  a other family member died on the weekend   I've failed all of them  I didn't look out for them   everyone around me is dying.  I haven't done enough to help my family or mates   I've failed my family and mates  

I feel like I've failed on here  I don't show that part    I'm worried what if my sibling or partner is next. I couldn't handle another person in my life  dying 

I don't need Lifeline or anything.     Thanks tho @NightPixie     i would like to keep my feelings to myself ATM  

[NightPixie]

Thanks for getting back to me @Sunnyside226!

Dealing with grief is tough, let alone when there's multiple people in your life that you've lost. It's also so common for it to bring up fears of losing other people in your life. It is scary to think about the potential of losing others but know that the loss of your loved ones isn't because you failed. 

When faced with such traumatic experiences, it's only natural to look for someone or something to blame. But sometimes, things just happen and it's out of our control (which is also scary to come to terms with).

Grief is such a big, consuming thing to go through, and at times it can feel impossible to heal. Grief feels different for everyone. For some it feels like time can heal those wounds. For others, the wounds never heal but we find ways to cope with it day-to-day. 

It's okay to want to keep your feelings to yourself right now, sometimes we need time to sit with it and process it before we can or want to seek out help. But know that whenever you are ready to take that step, there are supports out there for you to turn to 🌼

[Sunnyside226]

@NightPixie  thanks mate 

That was a very lovely message you did 💙 

Thank you again mate 

Goodbye I hope we  chat again one day soon.    

Bye now take care everyone I'm sorry for being different the last days.