Just checking in.

[Mazarita]

Yes, that was very fast image moderation. I appreciate it too, moderator. 

I am imagining you making that lovely creation yesterday, @CheerBear, and imagining some of the feelings that might have been arising for you. Seems good that you are able to own those feelings while they are happening, and find some meaningful ways to express them. 

The way I crashed a few months ago with that video-gone-wrong was awful, but the experience seems to have helped clarify a few things about how I want to work creatively into the future. Somehow this has built my confidence, I think. I have a bunch of projects I'm planning for next year that will evolve my creativity in some different directions, as well as continuing what I have been doing over the past four to five years.

How's today looking for you?

[CheerBear]

Its great when we can take something good out of the challenging or difficult experiences we go through and learn from them instead of letting them haunt us @Mazarita. Yesterday (I think) we were speaking about how you've grown and developed with your mental health over the years. I think that one is one way I have grown as I used to be quite easily consumed with my not-so-good experiences.

Very cool about your ideas for next year. Sounds exciting. I look forward to hearing about them as they happen 🙂

Today is looking pretty quiet for me. I may have to make a trip to the doctor to check whether what I'm experiencing physically is OK, but hopefully a phone call will be enough. I've written off today also so I'll probably either spend it in a beanbag watching random stuff online (that would be unusual for me but I'll enjoy that today) or I'll make something else with my hooks. I have an appointment here with my MH this afternoon also.

How about your day?

[Mazarita]

I hope the phone call is all that's necessary, @CheerBear, and that all is okay. Hugs for the physical stuff you are going through now. So good to hear that you have found experience your teacher too, in helping get through difficult emotions without them taking over so much as before. I think I still get pretty consumed when things go wrong with me, but those acute trouble times seem to last for shorter periods now, and then I seem to come to my senses in some way, and can manage things better.

Today is likely to be another quiet one for me. More work on projects. Maybe some domestic stuff I didn't get to yesterday. Probably a nap or two to make up for sleep I've missed overnight (only two hours so far). Maybe a getting-out-of-the-flat activity at some point. Need a shower too! 

I'm going to get off the forum now, and head back for some more sleep. Great to meet up again this morning. Hope your day is gentle and kind. Hugs again, just because. 

[CheerBear]

Love the idea of experience being a teacher @Mazarita. Seems I learn that way the best, though I am thinking it is not the easiest way to learn!

I'm going to head out also, after a post a reply to a thread it seems we were both writing a response to while chatting here this morning.

So great to share a sunrise with you again this morning Maz. Hope the day ahead is one with plenty of good for you ❤

[outlander]

Sorry @CheerBear @Mazarita i mustve drifted off. Ive been on and off all night.

CB- your latest creation is beautiful and special. Your work is always so neat!! Did you have another project in mind? Im glad your feeling a little calmer today but its ok not to be ok too ❣

Maz- your sounding like your working well through your projects which is great to hear 🙂 im not liking the sound of the heat where you are though. We're expecting a long hot summer here do they say but i hope theyre wrong lol.

[CheerBear]

Hey @outlander and thank you. Sorry to hear you had an on off night. I hope you are OK this morning.

I think my next thing will be another similar one with the same idea/theme. I want to make a special box with a few things I don't feel right getting rid of and think it would be nice to have something like this in it.

One of the littler people just saw it and asked if I was giving it to someone who was about to have a baby. The sads keep creeping in 😔

[outlander]

Big big hugs @CheerBear and lots of these ❤❤❤❤ its ok to be sad i cant really imagine how hard it would be esp when an innocent question can be quite a sensitive one too Perhaps just saying you wanted to make it for something a little different will suffice.. a special box sounds like a lovely idea ❤

I have a sick one off today which may be either an ear infection or a blocked ear cause she has a cold but she says her ear is really hurting so im taking her to the drs this morning and also getting a drs note. Im not feeling well myself mostly relating to what i was talking about on the ladies thread. I havent really slept due to pain not even wirh pain relief. Itll make walking up the stairs to the drs abit interesting.

[CheerBear]

Thanks for understanding @outlander. In a way I feel like I don't deserve to be sad because I chose this, but that could also be dark and twisted head talking there.

I haven't really caught up properly on that discussion but have picked up the general idea. Mega hugs - it can be debilitating. So worth you trying to get to a women's health nurse or asking for a referral to a specialist. I had my first treatment for endo at a few years younger than you, and had pcos diagnosed last year. It is super sucky at times. Try and trust yourself if you are feeling there is something wrong. Finding a supportive and understanding medical person is worth it.

Hope sick one feels better soon ❤

[outlander]

@CheerBear that i think is the dark and twisty stuff CB. Your such a beautiful person who is dealing with something that is extremely tough 💌💌💌💌

Thank you for your understanding also. You picked up pretty much summarised that convo in your post. I didnt know you had both endo and pcos. Thats what is being suspected but nothings being done yet. Its pretty awful and isnt something that was normal for me before only over the past 2 or so yrs and my gut and brain are both in aggreeance that maybe something isnt right and its more than just stress.. im going to try and do the brave thing today and call the womens health centre.

[Teej]

Hi @CheerBear I am really sorry about my post yesterday. My timing was terrible as well as the huge probability it added to your big feelings. I honestly didn’t intend it to be as it was when the concept was in my head.

Im hoping today is still going ok.