Lived Experience Forum

[Kiewagirl]

Hi I am sitting by the river
A bottle of wine and a pack of cigarettes
I try so hard but lose sight quickly
Depression is deep
Dissasosiative personality struggles
Suicide never leaves my mind
Feel like a failure
I don't know what to do

[Appleblossom]

Hello @Kiewagirl

Sorry to hear you are struggling.  For a long time suicdal thoughts were very pressing to me ... but eventually they have receded.

I hope it is a nice river and a decent red ... I had a pani attack last week cos someone made an appointment with me but did not realise she wasnt in the country yet ... she was confused by international datelines .. so I was at the river again ... take away some wisdom and calm from the water flow and movement and peace of being close to country.

Gentleigh Bentleigh

[Sky]

Hi @Kiewagirl,

Welcome to the forum and I'm one of the moderators here. 

Sounds like you're at a really low moment . It must be a struggle to think about the bright side when this happens.

Have you had a chance to read some of the other posts when others mentioned a similar experience? I did a search and posts in Looking after your wellbeing has some current discussions. Also Yes, I have Depression is a recent posts with some share learnings.

Of course Lifeline (131114) and Suicide Call Back (1300 659 467) operate 24/7 if you need to talk to someone. Suicide Call Back has online chat if you prefer not to talk. Beyond Blue (1300 224636) is specialised in area of Depression and Anxiety.

You'll find contributors like @Appleblossom being very supportive. Many people who regular use the forum go through different stages of life and changes and react in their own ways. People also share different ways that help themselves through tough times too.

It is certainly not easy to deal with everything else when you're feeling hopeless and that nothing works. I hope you'll find a way  that would shift your thoughts back to a simliar situation when you did something, which helped yourself to face the world again when you're ready.

Take Care,

[Kiewagirl]

Hi
Home safe
I struggle constantly today is bad
Thank you for your thoughts

[Former-Member]

Yep today is bad @Kiewagirl. I feel like it's turning into a river day for me too. Im OK and will work to stay safe but I hear your pain. I'm glad your home safe. Take care and be safe. 💜

[Kiewagirl]

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Bad day