Lived Experience Forum

[NoOne]

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@Former-Member wrote:

@Fluttershy1, over half of my alters are littles and most of them don't like the forefront they usually have to be negatively triggered out. My 2 first alters have been around since I was quite young my first I actually remember being my invisible friend from 4-7 years old. 

I have my dangerous ones too including a demon who doesn't feel pain and deliberately hurts our body. But I our system protectors have it under control and it rarely gets out now. Also I'm pretty sure my switching started at 12/13 possibly earlier and honestly it became a coping mechanism for many years.

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Thanks for sharing. 1 of mine is a badly traumatised 4 year old. Lately he cones out at worst times for micro sessions. I have my grandkids full time now. He is pretty great with them. At night when my GC can't sleep from his own bad life they 2 play toghter with cars. I have no memory. But therapist thinks its healthy healing. She met him once He froze wouldnt come out from under a desk . Very hard time for us all. Some healing i guess is changing him for better. But I'm afraid of his timing. Big W aith GC in toy section not good

[Former-Member]

@Former-Member , I live with DID and C-PTSD. I have I would say 6 permanent and the others well come and go as needed I guess. We have Shadow who until recently mainly messed with our mind. Her role is to remind us of who we are and what we deserve in life amd none of it includes happiness/love/friendship/joy ect but in the last couple of weeks she has taken to sh and the body is feeling the pain a lot. I had a "normal" so I  managed the DID for 10ish years, I worked, I divorced an a'hole found the love of my life remarried raised some pretty beautiful children's you know the tv blended family. In December last year I was physically assaulted by a dementia client amd bam like that it was like the ten years of treatment before my ten years of normal didn't even happen. I Never say I sufferfrom DID, I have or I live with DID. 

@NoOne, I know there is really nothing funny about a child alter coming at Big W but I did laugh because I have the same problem with my child alters. We will take my GD shopping and bloody hell the amount of time we have left not getting a single thing I had to but my granddaughter could have new toys amd a whole new wardrobe. I feel your pain. 

[NoOne]

Lol ya I guess its a way of us all getting the much needed love joy acceptance we never got. As long as no one hurt its good healing I suppose

[MySunrise]

Hi, I just came upon this thread. I have alters that front but I still feel like I'm kind of fronting as well. Does this happen to any of you? 
I've lived with this my whole life but have only recently been diagnosed and I'm just getting to know these ep's personally. I'm still trying to work it out. 
Can anyone else talk to me about early days when they finally worked out what was going on? 

[dontrainonme]

Hey! I don't have DID myself but i want you to know it is far more common than you think. There is a youtuber called DissociaDID who makes really informative videos. I hope maybe their videos might make you feel a bit less alone. Take care of your beautiful self. xx

[Former-Member]

We were recently diagnosed with DID, only a few months ago really. I (Ella) was really the only one unaware until earlier this year when I told my therapist about my symptoms she realised what it was and sent me to a specialist. I understand what you're going through, I came on here to try and find other people with DID to talk to because honestly I'm still really scared. I mean I'm only 15, most people don't realise until much older I'm just trying to survive high school. then I found out I have this whole past and 6 other people who are a part of me, idk I'm scared

[Former-Member]

That's called co-fronting or being co-conscious, I get that a lot I'm not a huge fan tbh.

[Former-Member]

Hello everyone,

Just saw this now - not sure if we're organised enough to call it a system haha but working on it!

(I'm usually, but not always, co-aware, if not fronting alone, if that makes sense..most likely due to my role being an Observer or Record Keeper of sorts : )

[BraveOne]

I get what you say when you mentioned you had to learn to deal with it yourself. That's what lve been doing for too long now.

[BraveOne]

Thanks for sharing your experiences around this idea of integration. I have also come across many professionals who believe this is the way to go. I really just wanna Be in my life everyday, and everyone inside to feel safe and respect each other. Some of us are able to hear each other now and our relationships are getting better inside.