Talking about our past experiences to a professional, or even just a trusted friend or colleague is very hard, it brings up so much emotion, and can be a traumatic experience in itself. But when you feel ready, (which going by your previous posts you do sound like you are ready for that step) it can relieve a lot of pressure and stress and start you on the journey of healing.
Like I said earlier, I kept my CSA a secret for 40years. I have never told my family, and have decided I probably never will. My marriage started to break down 2 years ago and through marriage counselling I realised just how much my CSA had affected both my marriage and just myself. I started seeing my marriage councillor one on one about 12 months ago for CSA and after a few months I was able to tell my husband what had happened.
It wasn’t easy, in fact I started getting terrible anxiety and panic attacks, I even had to stop the car and throw up on the side of the road on the way
home from one of my sessions. But, it does get better, a little easier. There are still bad days, I still react poorly to some triggers, but with help I can understand what I’m feeling and manage myself better.
I guess there is truth to the saying “a problem shared is a problem halved”. You are extremely brave to share your stories and to seek out help. I hope you can find a professional that you can trust.
I’m happy to chat if ever you need a friendly ear. I hope to see you both around the forums 🙂🙂
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