Dissociation

[Just]

Tired, but pushing through. Thanks for asking

[Just]

Thanks

[Just]

Yes, dissociation/derealisation. It's hard to put my finger on. I have good days when I can remember stuff on a few occasions that didn't make sense months after. My brain s gone to mush at the moment, trying to think of examples. I sometimes wonder why my friends never picked up on what I was doing.... Or not doing through out my life. Ok, thought of one...a friend asked me to look after her camera while at a birthday party. I m not drinking or taking any medication but I put the camera down and it's like I know I'm suppose to be doing a job ( looking after the camera). But my brain is watching a group of guys just pickup camera and then keep it. But I just watch like it's not really happening, or I have no control over it. I can see it so clearly now and I don't do a thing about it. It's like so surreal it's not happening at all. Then the next weird bit is I don't remember how I explained the loss of the camera.??? I can say I was feeling very stressed. But it felt also like I was watching it happen in a dream. Not real at all, so it couldn't hurt me. Hope this makes some sense. Also I completely forget this when someone asks me to look after something again... So wish I could remember at least to say no don't trust me. I'm not good with watching things, or for that matter remembering.to keep a secret.@shaz51@baggyjeans@emu12345

[Just]

@emu12345 hi and just wanted to say, you are loved back. Thanks for writing. I'm struggling mostly with head aches today. But your side effects of medication sound, yuck. :nauseated_face: Hope your feeling better soon 💟

[Just]

@OM108   someone mentioned "8 steps to safe trauma ....( I found this very good. ) Reinforced the ,5 senses that help you to stay in the moment. And mindfulness. As a good tool. Helped me realise I'm doing ok. So thanks to who ever wrote this and another book title, can't remember what it was called. Maybe @Streetspirit ? Was it you who wrote about books? Thanks 

[Just]

Can I just vent " to all the people who prey on others", I just want to punch you in the face. Especially people who prey on children.

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That has been a long time coming. Thanks for letting me say that. I have tears running down my face and can hardly breath. I know it's raw. But if I can't vent here where can I? Hope I haven't affected anyone . Needed to let it out!

[Just]

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Hearing you @Just . I've just added a spoiler to your posts so members can click on it to read it by choice.

Hope you are okay.

[OM108]

@Just 

Just catching up on your thread to see how you are doing?

I had to look up the book your mentioned about 8 steps.

Is it this book?

Have you read it? Looks REALLY good!

https://theunshamingproject.org/blog/safe-trauma-recovery-babette-rothschild/

Looks like you might be already doing some of these steps....(don't forget to make the lemonade!)

Here are the 8 keys that are described in her book:

• Key 1: Plot your Course with Mindfulness
• Key 2: Begin with Your Epilog… You Made it!
• Key 3: Remembering is not Required
• Key 4: Stop Flashbacks
• Key 5 Reconcile Forgiveness and Shame (Forgive your limitation, Share your shame)
• Key 6: Take Smaller Steps for Bigger Leaps
• Key 7: Get Moving
• Key 8: Make Lemonade

Might be worth checking out the whole website.

Gonna dig in myself...unshaming sounds like a very needed process for recovery.

Start the Healing Journey – The Unshaming Project

[Just]

Yes, that's the book. Thanks for reading.