Thoughts

[Lilly6]

After my positivity yesterday not so sure today. So overwhelmed right now. My job is sapping my soul, we are understaffed and had a whole bunch of new policy come through which of course has to be implemented right now. Add to that extra work due to staff away..... 

I know I have reasons not to go but finding it hard to see them today. So sick of all of this, just want it all to be fine with and over. Not sure I can do it. 

[Dancer9]

Hi @Lilly6 ,

I'm sorry that your work is so stressful and overwhelming at the moment, that sounds tricky to manage and I know it's already a challenging time for you. I'm glad to see you are still posting on the Forums.

Are you able to do some self care today, like taking a walk, listening to music, doing your nails, or reaching out to chat to someone like lifeline or Suicide call back service?

[NatureLover]

Just wanted to check in with you this morning, and saw your post, @Lilly6 ...I'm sorry work is so stressful, which wouldn't be helping at all... You will be at work now, so I hope it's manageable. Thinking of you and sending best wishes...

[Eve7]

I was happy for you yesterday @Lilly6 and happy that you are still here today. I, like you, struggle daily and can be positive one day and negative the next.

Today I spent time in the Spa but yesterday I hid. I really hope you get good offline support and that you stay connected here so we can continue to do life together.

You are very important and valuable.

💕💖💕

[Anastasia]

Hi @Lilly6 

That does sound difficult hun

I'm sorry that you are feeling overwhelmed. I'm happy you're here to connect with. Is there something you can do that nice for yourself tonight? 

I remember you saying that you have good support offline, I'm hoping they are helping hun. Keep reaching out, we are all here for you xxx @Eve7 @NatureLover @Dancer9 @Former-Member 

[NatureLover]

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@Eve7 wrote:

I really hope you get good offline support and that you stay connected here so we can continue to do life together.

You are very important and valuable.

💕💖💕

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I want to echo this from @Eve7 ...

Thinking of you, @Lilly6 ... 

[Lilly6]

Got through the day yesterday and today and feel like I am drowning somewhat. So many new changes, new people on caseload etc etc etc. Working from home tomorrow and next day and hoping to get on top of it all. Generally I can handle my caseload and the stress comes from the assessment but right now I don't even have a chance to look at my assessment...........

I have reasons to stay around as stated before but at the same time I feel I can't and I want to go. It is so hard, the voice in my head telling me I am better off not here is very loud sometimes and so tempting to give in to it. 

[NiteKat]

Hi Lilly6

I have sent brief email to you but just wanted to acknowledge your presence here and know you have ongoing support and care from the forum. Thak you for being open about your feelings

Regards

NiteKat (mod)

[NatureLover]

Dear @Lilly6 , I'm really sorry that dark thoughts are still troubling you... 😞

Also that you maybe didn't sleep too well last night? (going by the time stamp)...and that you feel you're drowing at work. I hope the next 2 days working from home help you, and you feel like you're catching up...

[Lilly6]

Thanks @NatureLover at the moment it is awful because 2 people are away training, have had a massive influx of new people which means getting your head around them all, breaches and new remote reporting. Technically manageable but difficult as you need to know who you are working with so takes a while to get up to speed when you get new people. I feel like I am absolutely absolutely drowning this morning. Spoke to my supervisor yesterday and said I would be up to speed by the end of the week but this morning there was an email micromanaging and telling me this needed to be done that needed to be done etc. I just sent one back saying we already discussed this yesterday.... 😔😔😔😔😭😭😭😭😭😭

I can't do this anymore, the email this morning just added to everything and I just do not want to go in right now.