Complex PTSD - Depression - Anxiety - ADD - Fibro Myalgia/Chronic Fatigue - Life is so hard.

[Former-Member]

Whoops! Sorry @Former-Member
I mean @CheerBear. 😊🐻

[CheerBear]

Oh @Former-Member - i think that struggle to keep on keeping on for the kids is what's behind so much of my exhaustion at the moment. The effort it takes to not break down on front of them - so hard. Like you said before, it's so good to have that reason to push through (not that others dont, but kids are a big one), but it comes at the cost of having to push through it when you almost can't. Tough.

Baths are a good one for anxiety I find. I like to burn it out too, so bike riding etc but with CF @Former-Member, I'm guessing thats hard yeah? The sadness and dark twisty stuff is what gets me and what I struggle with I think.

My plans for the holidays are to survive them haha. I've got the littles sorted for a couple of days and then I'll see what happens. What about you?

[Former-Member]

Hi @Former-Member - Nights are definitely hardest for me, so yeah i get the panic attacks at night 😞 

No i couldnt do 4 days.. two days before term started the person who was going to do my one day pulled out as they got extra work in their other job and didnt want to do full time either. But its going well... I've just got a cleaner with the extra money that i thought i wouldnt have once a fortnight and a gardener to keep the gardens ok... and that is helping!

Hugs

[Former-Member]

Hi @CheerBear oh yes... i think that is very true, the struggle to be 'okay' all the time for the kids really is exhausting! I get that completely. But as you say it also drives me to be better as well, so some motivation to keep trying.

Baths.. there was an article in the paper or something today about hot baths being as good for you or better for you than a 30 minute walk!

Yes holidays are still a few weeks away here! Have to get through a photo day and sports day and something else, cant remember but AGH!

lj

[Former-Member]

With the weather cooling down I'll be able to get out and walk a bit more. @CheerBear
I know exercise is the answer to alot of health issues. I can push myself more when it's not so hot. With cf I have to be careful about when to push and when not to. Sometimes I exercise too much and end up falling in a "deep hole".
Winter here is my favourite season. 😊

I was able to bring myself to book an apartment approx 3 hour drive from here, next week for 3 nights.
Trying not to think about it all , so I won't get anxious. Not keen on driving in busy traffic, so 3 hours is a big deal for me.

I'll be ok once I'm in the car.

It will be just my daughter and I.

Lots of shopping, eating out, walks at beach etc..... 😊🌊🌼🌻🏃
There's a gym on top floor, will check it out. 😀 Won't think about heights and lifts. Haha! So many things to overcome 😮😣😨😊😂
I'm normal haha! 😂

Looking forward to it, but not the stress part of it, if that makes sense. 😀

[Former-Member]

Wow @Former-Member that sounds so nice (going away with daughter) yes, don't dwell on the things to over come just the shopping, eating out, walks!!! Normal is probably overrated... not that i'd know either lol! Be nice to be bored once in a while!
🙂

[Former-Member]

Was so pleased to hear that you have a cleaner and someone to do your garden @Former-Member 😊👍
Way too much to do it all on your own.

School holidays here already. Raining. Hope it clears when we go away.

[Former-Member]

I actually don't think normal exists, to be honest @Former-Member 😂
Most people are struggling with something, some more then others.

Yes, I'm focusing on the good re going away. 😀

[Former-Member]

Back later. Cuppa time ☕

Cooler weather today, love it. 😊

[CheerBear]

Oh I remember when you booked that @Former-Member. I was a yellow bear not a pink one then 😉 Sounds really fun and exciting! Lol re normal. It's hard not feeling 'normal' sometimes. I kind of embrace the quirkiness a little though. Similar to what @Former-Member said, being bored might be a nice change sometimes, but having 'quirks' at least keeps things interesting?! Maybe that's a stretch but gotta try and find the good lol