Not Coping

[ArraDreaming]

Hey @Birdofparadise8 will be on and off later but I do have to go feed my kids and all that, you know.

One peace of advice I will give to you though is write your email that you feel like writing, then don’t send it, save it and come back to it, the last thing you want to be doing right now is losing your sh!t at them. They could very well be thinking that it is not an appropriate service for you so by getting angry and all that it might give them more of a reason (I’m saying from experience), and if this is the case then they should be pointing you to where IS the right place (aka, here).
I’m not saying I think that, I’m just saying that to save you from further pain keep it civil if you want to keep as much opportunity to go back on as you can. I obviously don’t know the background info so I can say what the reason is but I’m just giving you a peace of advice, that’s all.
Remain civil.
And to be honest buddy I don’t think you will be getting a response at 7pm on a Friday night, nothing can be done between now and morning. When I’m up at night anxious about something I should have done or similar I think nothing can be done in the middle of the night, I can do back and ask that person if I said the right thing when it’s 3am I just can’t, so at 9am or whenever it is when I talk to them maybe I will bring it up.
But nothing can be done right now, if they reply wouldn’t that be a bonus but it’s a Friday night at 7pm, I suggest you take a deep breathe hang out here for the weekend and reevaluate what you are sending to them until at least Sunday night, give yourself a moment. We can’t solve things when we are angry or heightened…

[Birdofparadise8]

Yeah they came for the afl and to see me. 
no I can’t it’s to much. I just have to cope until they go. @ENKELI 

Can we talk after they leave please enkeli I need someone in my life I can count on. 
but If your busy I get it. It will be your dinner time. 
I’m sorry I’m being so needy. 

[Birdofparadise8]

They emailed me at 6 pm 

Thanks for the advice but I just sent a second email. 
I did apologies in the email if I was coming across rude or anything. I said I was very upset and stuff. 
no I feel like I’ve fucked up when I saw your post. @ArraDreaming 

all good I’ll be having dinner soon.

[ENKELI]

@Birdofparadise8 I'll be here sweetheart, I'm not going anywhere.

Talk, vent, do whatever you need to 

[Birdofparadise8]

Thank you @ENKELI 

I just hope they at least reply to my email. 
they send it at 6 pm. 
they no how im feeling right now. Why do they always do it at the worst times. One day it was at work in the middle of my shift I was on my lunch break and then I got an email. 
I bet they did it on a Friday at 6 so they don’t have to reply. Ahh I’m so mad, sad, angry, upset, hurt, I feel rejected. They are supposed to be supportive not not supportive. 
I feel like I’m going to break once my parents leave. I’m so scared. im safe though my parents will be back tomorrow so nothing can happen. 

[ENKELI]

@Birdofparadise8 is there anything you can do to try and calm yourself down? Do you have medication or any exercises that you can use to help you?
If they emailed you at 6pm does that mean they are there outside of business hours? 
They definitely need to know the affect this has had on you and they need to work out a better way to interact with you. 

I know you won't say anything to them that might cause them to extend the ban or not answer but having to wait for an answer is so bloody difficult

[Birdofparadise8]

I’ll be back going to have the roast lamb mum cooked @ENKELI 

thank you for being here with me. You don’t know how much I appreciate it. 

[Birdofparadise8]

No medication really @ENKELI 

@I’ll be back

[Birdofparadise8]

They work until 11 pm @ENKELI 

like to moderate and email for safety stuff. 
no reply yet. 
Yes very much so. Having dinner did help and just general chat with my parents. 
how’s your dinner if your having anything yet? 

[ENKELI]

@Birdofparadise8 I'm glad you're feeling a little bit calmer now and I do hope you get a response to your email. Even chatting about other stuff with your parents will have helped with your tension and stress. For me if I have someone to talk to and we talk about something else that helps.

I haven't had dinner yet, I just have to cook pasta and reheat the sauce for spaghetti, which I'll do in a little while.

Do you parents stay at an air bnb while they are in Melb or with family? When are they going back to Tas?