Not Coping

[Blackbird11]

you weren't making it his fault, he's just misunderstood again @Birdofparadise8 

You did good @Birdofparadise8 

It's a tribute band 

[Birdofparadise8]

Oh, okay I thought that I wasn't trying to be rude or anything. I just wanted to show him what I thought he meant. Anyway, nothing I can do to change how he through. I just don't like people being upset with me. I did apologise to him. 

Ah okay, cool. well, I better let you go back and have fun. 

One question in the place you live do you have aircon? You can answer later. @Blackbird11 

[Blackbird11]

Yes, it's tough feelings having someone upset with you. I don't like conflict, it's hard.

Yes we have Air conditioning @Birdofparadise8 

[Birdofparadise8]

Yes, it's hard, anyway. I'm sure it's okay. I don't like it. Ah, nice. 

I don't have one in my very small room and it gets so hot. I have two fans but they don't do much @Blackbird11 

[Birdofparadise8]

I spoke to soon about feeling better this week. I've had a busy afternoon, returned a jumper, and got food for the week. I've come home and done a couple of other things. I've sat down, and now I'm crying and all sad for who knows what. It's like a wave has washed over me. I thought this wasn't going to continue to happen since the past week has been good, but I'm wrong. I'm safe, by the way. 

[tyme]

Hey @Birdofparadise8 ,

Sorry to hear things aren’t the best. I hope things improve for you over the week as they have been the past week.

Heading towards the end of year, this was usually by trigger time. Not sure for you though.

Please take care.

[Birdofparadise8]

Hi @tyme 

Thank you. No, not really. Christmas is okay for me. I guess the normal "Laura Depression". 

Ehh sucks big time. I thought things would start to improve overall, but that's not the case. 

How are you tonight?

[Birdofparadise8]

Why was it a trigger for you @tyme?

[tyme]

The uncertainty of the end-of-year events... break from my usual schedule and routine....tooo much free time on my hands... too much time to ruminate. Hence a lot of my hospital admissions were the end of year/new year period. @Birdofparadise8 .

Not for the last few years though. I'm too busy at that time.

However, there are many other there who don't have anyone to be with and when most services are shut, it makes it so hard for them. But this doesn't mean it'll be the same for you. This was only my experience.

[Birdofparadise8]

That is true. It can be hard when services are shut down. I noticed that a little last year, but I'm always so busy with family things that I don't stop. So I don't have time to meditate and all that. However, I'm not working still, but I have my one unit at uni keeping me going. 

I hope you have a good day today and tomorrow. Talk to you later in the week @tyme.