Tw Not Coping

[Captain24]

I just feel like I’m rehashing things. @Jynx. I got stood down from work Thursday for MH reasons. I had a breakdown at work. I need to get a fit for work clearance before I am able to return. The HR manager that I saw in the supermarket this morning is the one who called. Hence triggering the thoughts. My big fear is that I’ll be sacked or constantly judged and monitored. The safety of others is their concern and I totally get that it’s a dangerous environment. I wouldn’t put anyone in danger ever. I work in a coal mine driving those big trucks. Just do you get the safety concern

[Shaz51]

@Captain24 

Because our son lives in Sydney and we live in far north Queensland 😀

[Birdofparadise8]

Sorry @Captain24 that your not doing to good anything I can do to help?

[Birdofparadise8]

Hey @Jynx 

How are you today? 

[Jynx]

Oh wow @Captain24  yeah that is pretty full-on. Can understand that tension between trying to reassure yourself but having that undercurrent of anxiety just simmering away. 

Friend of mine who used to drive Uber decided to disclose her bipolar dx, and despite her being one of the most kind-hearted and empathetic people I know (i.e. would NEVER put anyone in danger) she had to jump through so many hoops to be able to keep driving. Can be such a difficult thing to navigate, MH and workplace stuff.

I hope it gets sorted for you soon. Anything you're doing to keep busy in the meantime? 

[Jynx]

Howdy @Birdofparadise8 good to see you 😊

I'm doing pretty well! Staying put in the air con whilst it is so hot outside 😅

How you travelling? 

[Birdofparadise8]

Yes same here in the air con too I really regret going for my run earlier it was way to hot hahaha @Jynx 

I’m alright I guess could be better, but I always say that just depression stuff sucks. 

[Jynx]

@Birdofparadise8  oof yeah that was brave of you! But also yay you ticked off exercise from your to do list? Haha. 

I hope you get to have a super chill arvo and the stressy n depressy isn't too heavy 💜🤗

[Birdofparadise8]

I wish I have so much to do to get ready for work this week @Jynx 

[Captain24]

I wish I never told them about the bipolar. @Jynx. What they don’t realise is it’s type 2 so most episodes are depressive. Which is not really any different to some one with depression. But yes so many hoops. But if I can keep my job I won’t be letting them know how I really am. As soon as my meds are sorted then I’ll be fine anyway. 

Im just taking it easy. Sitting on the lounge with Pixie, listening to music and playing games in my phone. None of my other distraction techniques are working.  Also waiting for the temp to get into the 30’s and then I’ll go back outside in the sun