@Birdofparadise8 thank you. Nobody wants to get involved. I asked a friend of mine, we had been friends for years and I introduced him to my ex friend. I asked him you know what I'm like, can you please just say something to her? And he replied, no, she's been a good friend to me and I don't want to upset her. It's like being bullied all over again, you try to speak up but no one believes you. And those who are on my side don't want to get involved. I'd love for my brother to say something to her as he works within walking distance from the supermarket she works at but he doesn't want to, he doesn't see the sense in saying anything.
I even spoke to our pastor and while he sympathised he has since left the church we attended and has nothing to do with her anymore.
The last person was my psychologist who again met ex friend through me and our church and she told me that what I said about ex friend was rude and that I need to be careful what I say about other people. She then unfriended me on Facebook and said unless I want to see her in a professional capacity and pay $120 an hour then she didn't wish to speak to me. I told her that considering she sided with ex friend and not me why would I pay her to tell me I was the bad person and in the wrong? I've no idea what she replied because I haven't read it.
Most days I can take a deep breath and try to move on but this weekend was hard because I was going through a box that I had left packed from when ex and I lived together. I knew it was going to be difficult because the box is full of trinkets and photos, letters and stuff from the 3 of them. I just got overwhelmed and then when I was sorting put my summer clothes I found a top and pants my Godson got me for my birthday. He was so excited when I picked it out and when I wore it for the first time he was jumping up and down, so proud that he picked something I liked.
I pray for him constantly as he was neglected by his mother. She spent most of her time either playing on her phone or with my Goddaughter and she had said to me she never felt close to her son like she did her daughter. I loved the kid to distraction and we spend a lot of time together. I found a video of him on my phone the other day which made me cry.
Within a month of my telling me she no longer wanted to live with me my Godson was expelled from his school for lack of anger control and I know had I been there it never would have happened. He knew my room was a safe space and he would come to me whenever he was upset or angry and we shared so much that he felt he couldn't tell his mum.
Damn I'm trying to hold back tears just thinking about my boy 😓
Sorry to offload all this, how are you coping at the moment? Did you have a decent day?
