Not Coping

[creative_writer]

@Shaz51, I’m just exhausted right now and feel utterly broken 😢

[Birdofparadise8]

Oh okay, I follow @Jynx 

I love romance. It's always predictable. I've been worried about this couple a couple of times. 

Maybe you could google and find some to your liking. 

How has your day been?

[creative_writer]

@Jynx, I find writing to be the most effective form of expression. Simple words don’t do it for me. I feel I process by using metaphor and imagery. Like I can say I’m feeling low and lost right now, but it doesn’t give me the same release as saying I feel trapped in a dark room surrounded by monsters that keep reminding me of what I want to forget

[ENKELI]

@creative_writer oh wow, that's not good at all. I hope it clears up quickly for you. 

[Shaz51]

Ha ha totally @Jynx 

The doctor has put me on some insulin injections daily  since  Friday and my sugar levels are still high -- thinking my expectations are too high so after a teary night , trying to lower my expectations and not to panic when I see my sugar test levels 

[Jynx]

@Birdofparadise8 haha maybe, I imagine there are plenty of queer authors releasing some spicy stuff. But I gotta get through my book pile first, cos it's a struggle to stay focused long enough to read proper chunks. Day has been otherwise pretty uneventful! How's yours been?

@creative_writer aye, I'm very similar. I think writing is an excellent form of release, helps us to externalise things, and to see them from other angles and stuff. It's why I like Tarot as a form of introspection - it's not about the cards telling my future or anything, it's about using the symbols and associated meanings as ways of reflecting on my current circumstances, exploring possible blind spots, or re-focusing on the things that matter, stuff like that. I imagine writing and prayer can offer similar insight. 

Do you ever write something just to burn it or shred it? I find doing so to be very cathartic. 

[Shaz51]

I wrote a story once @Jynx , @Birdofparadise8 , @creative_writer 

I still have it but have not read it again for a long time 

[Jynx]

Aww @Shaz51 that's super rough hun. Sending you soooo many hugs! 

I think it is definitely wise to mitigate your expectations. Just take it one step at a time, and if it's not results that are ideal, you will know what steps you need to take next, and hopefully will have guidance and support from docs to do so. Sitting with you hun, want a cuppa? I can pop the kettle on, might be time for coffee number 2 hehe 🤗💜

[Birdofparadise8]

I'm on the edge of my seat. 

So a guy Nathan and a girl Stassie one is a skater, and one is an ice hockey player

they meet and don't like each other, but circumstances change, and then they slowly start creating a great relationship. stassies ice skating partner Aaron wrecks things by saying Nathan hurt him, so neither of them could do their sport. Aaron was injured, and Nathan banded until he got better. Finally, things get better, and they can move on. Then Aaron wrecks things again and says really awful things to Stassie. They go to couple therapy for sports people and things improve. Everything is looking good. Nathan surprises Stassie at her competition, and at the end, Aaron kisses her in front of a lot of people. She couldn't get off of him, and now I'm going to read the last two chapters to see what happens. @Jynx 

I can't belive he would do that. 

Just reading and researching some stuff. Cleaners came in and stuffed up my day lol. The uni didn't tell me they were coming today. 

[creative_writer]

@Jynx, I think my brain just works differently. I don’t find journaling as helpful. I find poetry way more effective. Prayer helps as it brings comfort and hope. It helps knowing there is a loving and forgiving God protecting me. I feel like spirituality is often underrated, you don’t even have to be really religious. I feel like I have torn things I wrote, that helps too. Though I am naturally more inclined to writing poems, and I save those.

@Shaz51, I hope the injections help. Diabetes can be rough. What kind of story did you write?