Not Coping

[Birdofparadise8]

One thing: is this all about my roommates or your post? 

Thank you. Just another day in my life. I am somehow used to it with how I would have a lot of people bullying me at once. I do wonder why I can't handle rejection any better. It's been the same since high school, my reaction. If anything, it's gotten worse as I'm more alone and don't have the school structure and my parents around. 

I would like to say something, but I just don't know how. 

My aunt and uncle say I need to accept it because it's shared housing, but I say I shouldn't have to live with rubbish and unclean things. 

That is true. But if I say something and they do react and are angry at me then I've got to live with that for the whole year. @Former-Member 

[Former-Member]

Hey @Birdofparadise8 , it’s a pleasure to chat ☺️🌺

I’m so glad you’re feeling a bit better this evening - that’s made my evening to hear 😀🙌🏻🌺

Enjoy Tay in your ears, and I hope you can relax and get a really good sleep tonight 🙂🌺💜

signing off for now, so I’ll say goodnight sweetness 💜🤗🌺

[Birdofparadise8]

By the way, I said understand but I also mean talking to you both @Former-Member @ENKELI 

[Birdofparadise8]

Aww @Former-Member 

You are too kind. Thank you @Former-Member 

All good. Have a good night. I'll probably tag you tomorrow so if your around I'd love to chat if not all good. 

[Former-Member]

Thanks heaps @Birdofparadise8 🙂🌺

tag anytime - I’ll be popping in tomorrow; catch you then dearest 🙂💜🌺

nite nite ☺️

[ENKELI]

@Birdofparadise8 boo the photo didn't come through 😩

Yeah, get your own scissors, whoever used yours. And put your wrappers in the bin for the love of Pete. That's just lazy! Nope, I'm sneaking in and sealing their rooms so they can't leave them!!

Apparently I'm 166cm. Do you mean I'm actually taller than someone?! Lol

She works every day but Tuesday and Sunday. It's all good, the Woollies up the road is probably closer anyway.

I've never really liked Woollies, only started shopping there when she and I were friends and she gave me her 2nd staff card. Before I had even moved out she cancelled my card without telling me and when I asked her about it she came up with some rubbish story. Even my aunt who thought ex friend was wonderful thought it was pretty mean.

Ha ha I've got Red playing in the background. It's on my play list!

[Birdofparadise8]

It is a photo of my clean room. Is it not allowed, or is it just not been looked at yet? @ENKELI 

Yes, you are. The other two in my place are shorter than me. So, three people, hahaha. 

Oh really that's so odd. I'm sorry she did that. I do hope you find some more friends that respect you and treat you with love and kindness becias you deserve it. Your a wonferul person and have been so kind to me not just this past week but overall since we have started communicating to each other. 

Gosh, I wish I could give you a hug @ENKELI 🫂 💖

[Birdofparadise8]

Can you see it now @ENKELI 

[ENKELI]

@Birdofparadise8 I love the pic on your wall!! Lol! Was that from the concert?

I refreshed my screen and it came through so it was a problem from my end.

I hope you also find some true friends. I'd love to have even just one or 2 other friends that I could do things with. My oldest friend is always busy with theatre stuff - she's into acting - and my other closest friend is on another continent. I've got another friend that I am going to a concert with in May but unless I contact her I never hear from her.

Yes I wish I could give you a big hug too. 
I'm pretty optimistic at the moment.

I do have some things to do tomorrow but I will pop in and say hi when I'm home.

Do you have classes tomorrow?

[Birdofparadise8]

Ah okay. Well, the thing is right: if mum was here, she would be able to pick out things that are messy about my room. 

These two rooms are messy, and I wouldn't even like them. It's disgusting. 

Thank you, I do hope I will. I worry sometimes that I'll never have any. 

What are you optimistic about?

No, I see my GP and osteo. I'll also do some study for my in-class presentation next Monday. 

Did you see my point about asking you a question about my psych and something he said? 

And if I can tell you about it. If not, can we talk about that tomorrow? I think I'm going to get ready for bed now and read my book. @ENKELI