Not Coping

[Blackbird11]

Street eats @Birdofparadise8 

[Birdofparadise8]

That's such a nice place. 

Make sure you take cutlery as it will be wooden crap. @Blackbird11 

I've been there a couple of times. 

Are you going with anyone?

[Blackbird11]

Thanks @Birdofparadise8 

I'm going with friends this evening.

[Birdofparadise8]

I'll be back in but over an hour @Blackbird11 

Just waiting inside to see him. The place always smells nice. 

[Birdofparadise8]

Hi @Blackbird11 

We talked about how I was premature and how I would be In hospital and that I wouldn't always have someone looking after me if I was crying and then that could lead to me in pain or feeling abandoned. 

So this deep abandonment could stem all the way back to being born. 

And with the sadness. Then also with rejection not only around others but even my psych because he said I book the appointments so far in advance. But that because I have a specific time with being available and I don't want miss an appointment. He said that's because I have a fear or rejection with him. But that fair enough when I can only do that session. But maybe he is referring to me booking than So far out. 

[Birdofparadise8]

He also asked again about the session regularity. I said I wanted to stay with weekly.

@Blackbird11 

[Blackbird11]

He is only checking regularity to establish his knowledge around your availability @Birdofparadise8 

How do you feel about what he said around all that? That's a lot to recognise and unpack.

[Birdofparadise8]

I already booked out sessions until May @Blackbird11 

Yeah, it's a bit hard. I had never really thought about it. I'm not really sure what's going to happen now, though. We have had seventeen sessions, and it seems we haven't gotten to things. 

I think next week, I hope we can work on the abandonment issues. I never thought it would stem all the way from being premature. Maybe that's why I crave comfort so much when I'm sad. 

[tonys]

Thankyou for posting those sweet words up. @Glisten   I reckon we grab an end each and carry it over to  the poetry thread.     Oh well. . .   It was a fleeting thought.    Thanks for the lustre on my eye.

tonys..

[Birdofparadise8]

Hey @tyme 

How are you?

Can we talk, please?