Not Coping

[bartart23]

Hi @Birdofparadise8 I'm really fine 🙂🤨 how are you 

[Birdofparadise8]

Fine 😢 or Fine 😀 @bartart23 

Eh, I've been packing more of my stuff. I've got so much. I need to have a shower, but I'm avoiding it, I'm hungry, and I need to get something to eat as I've run out of food. 

[bartart23]

Fine 🥲 @Birdofparadise8  busy day  I may of missed it please don't get angry at me are you moving? Or just getting rid of things? Sorry if I have missed it 😕

I don't have food in my house i don't really you know

I'm might leave my partner I don't know yet 😞

[Birdofparadise8]

So you're not really okay then @bartart23 

I'm not angry at you. 

So I'm going to Hobart for Christmas on the 20th, then I will fly back to Melbourne on the 5th, and then I will move across the road to my new room on the 6th of January. 

Why do you keep saying missed it?

[bartart23]

Because I am sure you have told me but I couldn't remember that's why I said I may of missed it

I'm keeping my month shut about my feelings 🙂 so I don't worry anyone or get emails 🙂

[Birdofparadise8]

It's okay. Don't worry about it, @bartart23. 

You can share how you're feeling. People only worry if they don't know if you're safe or not. 

[bartart23]

When is the J person on? I would like to chat to them about the trans things
Plus I have no clue how many peer workers there
Who is or isn't

I was very hurt last night because I hurt you guys with what I was saying I felt so bad

And yes I just woke up 🥱

All my characters are playing up

[Birdofparadise8]

I'm not sure when Jynx is on sorry @bartart23. 

Maybe you could start a trans thread, and people can come and talk about anything trans-related, and you can get some support. 

No, you didn't hurt me. Were you told that? 

I was struggling a bit myself last night, and things seem very intense, that's all. 

Seriously, we're all good. You have nothing to apologise for. You're obliviously struggling, and you just wanted support. I just couldn't offer it to you with what was going through my head. 

[bartart23]

No I wasn't told I had hurt you

I just thought I did because I've never this bad it's always around Christmas and December

The thoughts and different personalities and ages all come out and it does it get bad

Plue sometimes the voices take over and talk

Yes I know I am a handful monster

I always feel like I'm not trouble with I don't say safe I wasn't meaning anything harmful

I see why everyone leaves me 😀🥲

[Birdofparadise8]

You're not a harmful monster @bartart23 

It's okay you really didn't hurt me. I promise. I'm complicated as well. 

Anyway, let's forget about yesterday. What are you doing this afternoon? 

I really need to go have a shower so I might go do that in a minute.