Tw Not Coping

[Birdofparadise8]

Hi @Paperdaisy 

I guess so I just don’t want my mum and dad to find out. 

Thank you @creative_writer I still do feel ashamed like he is probably thinking why would I think such thoughts it’s no easy thing and like I feel like I’m just fighting to survive right now. 

I also feel ashamed if I don’t go through with it as it shows I’m weak. 

I’m probably not making any sense sorry. 

[Paperdaisy]

Hey @Birdofparadise8 maybe you don't want your Mum and Dad to find out cause you know it would hurt them, cause they care about you and you care about them? That's something to hold onto. 

Those are really difficult thoughts to live with and you're not alone. Reaching out for support is a good thing and nobody thinks you are weak, quite the opposite. Stay strong hun 💝

Are you going to chat to KHL today? 

[Birdofparadise8]

Yeah I know they care for me and I care for them I just don’t want them to be disappointed in me. 

I’m not sure I’ve been talking to them like everyday since Tuesday @Paperdaisy. I don’t want to be a burden. 

[Paperdaisy]

@Birdofparadise8 These services exist to support people like yourself during times of need. You're not a burden, you deserve support as much as anyone. See how you go, maybe you can try some grounding exercises (I've found this app helpful) but if things escalate for you later I would encourage you to reach out. 

[Birdofparadise8]

I guess I just don’t want to waste peoples time. 

I’m out right now I needed to leave my apartment or I wouldn’t spiral @Paperdaisy 

I’m looking for a baking dish for a focaccia. 

[Paperdaisy]

Great idea! Yummy! @Birdofparadise8 😊

[creative_writer]

@Birdofparadise8, depression is tough, SI is common. Your feelings are valid. I know it's hard to be kind to yourself, can you think of one nice small thing you can do? I hope dinner goes well for you ❤️

Hi @Paperdaisy, nice to see you. How are you doing? ❤️

[Birdofparadise8]

Yeah I’m going to either do it tonight or tomorrow I’ll see how I feel when I get home @Paperdaisy 

What are you up to?

Do you have children?

[Birdofparadise8]

I’ll be making the focaccia @creative_writer 

[Birdofparadise8]

I don’t understand myself ten minutes ago I was feeling alright but now I’m on the train all I want to do is cry but I can’t @Paperdaisy