Need to vent

[Snowie]

@BlueBay 

Hoping this afternoon has been ok for you.

Lots of love hon 💕💕

[NatureLover]

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@BlueBay wrote:

...the ECG was good and that the MRI results were good too. they cyst on pancreas is still there but hasn't grown and it's not cancerous.  i was glad.

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she gave me a big big hug and i cried.  it was nice of her to do that. because apparently the nurses are not allowed to hug patients!!

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Oh my mum rang home this morning and said thanks to hubby as dad received my present.  

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well the sun is out, the birds are chirping.  i might go and grab a second coffee and sit outside on the huge deck area. 

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@BlueBay  glad to hear some of your good news 🙂

I hope the new med for your heart works well...

[BlueBay]

hello my dear friends @NatureLover @Snowie @oceangirl @Eve7 @Shaz51 @Owlunar @BPDSurvivor @Anastasia @Bow @Emelia8 @MDT  and others following on - 

Update:

Last night I was given a calming tab and i slept really well but woke up feeling very very slow.  Like i was in slow motion.  took my time for breakfast, had a shower and got my meds.  We went for a walk around the hospital which was nice to breathe in some fresh air and take our masks off.

came back inside and one of the nurses had bought scones and cream for our morning tea, which was really nice and appreciated.  lots more quiz games.

After lunch i went to bed and had a little sleep.  got up and we went for another walk around the place.  

then rest time again.  a nurse came in to see me and i told her i feel very slow, everything is an effort.  she said just rest, don't do too much group, just rest your body.  she gave me my afternoon med which i found out was another calmer, so off to sleep i went.

havign dinner and it is terrible.  for a private hospital i would expect a much better variety of food.  because i am fructose and lactose intolerant they call in FODMAP.  so my menu is very limited.  well since i came in on monday to tonight all i have had is - beef, 2 roast pot and 2 roast pumpkin.  That's it.  no other vegies.  i wrote a note to the kitchen requesting i don't have the same menu again, but tonight it's the same.  so i have written another note tonight to give to the kitchen chef.  how hard is it to make gluten free pasta with butter and cheese. or rice with a gluten free sauce. and stick some green.  i am sick of dinner.

that's it for me, enough complaining.  hoping to hear about my echocardiogram tomorrow.  i have been reading google and i have a feeling i have got pericarditis from covid.  the cardiologist has already got me taking meds for this.  so i wonder.

goodnight my dear friends, hope all well.

love to all

until the next update .......

xxxxxxoooooo

[Eve7]

Thank you for the update @BlueBay 

I’m sorry the food is so poor in there and I don’t blame you for complaining as I would too.

It does seem you are settling in better though and what a nice nurse to bring in scones for you all.

Sending lots of love 💙💙💙

[BlueBay]

hi friends @Eve7 @NatureLover @Snowie @oceangirl @Shaz51 @Owlunar @BPDSurvivor @Emelia8 @MDT @Anastasia  and others following - 

update:-

still waiting for my echocardiogram to be done to look at inflammation of lining near heart

still have withdrawal effects from my old med

had a terrible night last night kept waking up, so tonight i will ask for a prn med to help me sleep

food hasn't changed, pretty horrible for a private hospital

this morning i went to nurses to get me meds and i was told we have no therapist today so we were free to do whatever!!  what a joke. we can't go outside for a walk, we can't have visitors and we cant have leave. so all i did was colouring a piece of paper; talk to a few patients, go to bed and sleep and speak to my daughter and little A.

such a boring day.

i received an email today from my psychologist telling me that my funding has finished and they are no longer taking patients with funding.  Great, so now i have no psychologist.  what am i going to do? i emailed my psychiatrist to ask for any recommendations, hoping she can help.  otherwise when i see my GP once i leave here i will ask him, as he is the one that does the referral.

i am stressing because i do need a psychologist but right now i am in hospital and i can't do much.

been in touch with our lawyer who is doing section 32 for our home, ready to sell.  once i leave here we will sign the contracts with the agent and off it goes for sale.  very scared, nervous, overwhelmed and emotional - but i know realistically it's for the best.  where do we move to? - i have no idea!!

i hope you are all doing as best as you can, know that i do care xxxxxooooo

@Owlunar @BPDSurvivor  haven't seen you both on here for a while - i hope you are both doing okay and maybe needing some self care and time out from the forum. xxxxxxx

[Shaz51]

Hello and hugs my sister xoxo @BlueBay 

Thank you for your update,  thinking of you lots today as I had to go to the hospital yesterday for the pains that I was in , I am walking sideways 

I have a kidney infection and can only take AB's for 5 days because of my kidney disease 

Mr shaz has cut back on his meds in half,  one day at a time here 

We are not going to rebuild now 

Hugs @Eve7 , @NatureLover , @oceangirl , @Emelia8 , @Daisydreamer 

[BlueBay]

Take care of @Shaz51  hope you feel better soon xxxxx

ive never felt so alone emotional angry scared like today 

having echo done on Thursday 

stress levels high 

I just lay in bed and do nothing 

😥😥😥

[NatureLover]

@Shaz51  sorry to hear about your kidney infection! 😞 Hope it heals very quickly...

@BlueBay oh no re your psychologist! 😞

[BlueBay]

Having my echocardiogram this morning to check for pericarditis 

So nervous anxious 

@NatureLover @Shaz51 @Eve7 @Snowie@Owlunar @Emelia8 @MDT and others following - 

[Shaz51]

Sitting with you my sister xoxo @BlueBay ❤❤