Need to vent

[tyme]

Having been around on the forums for a while now, I see evidence and glimpses of quite the opposite @BlueBay .

There is so much in you to that you offer to others, and that's why people want to be around you. 

You have a huge heart for others, and remember we have spoken in the past of how amazing your children have become because of YOU?

Our minds like to draw us to the negatives, particularly in the evenings. This is how we have evolutionised. In the past, if human minds did not think of the negatives in the evening, they would be eaten alive by predators. Hence, our evolving mind has continued this negativity (particularly in the evenings). It is to help us survive.

Today, unfortunately, we have taken these same thoughts even though we no longer need negative thoughts to keep us alert for survival - hence the havoc it plays in today's society. 

Let these thoughts come and go. 

You ARE an amazing wife.

You ARE an amazing mother.

You ARE an amazing nonna.

Hugs,

tyme

[BlueBay]

I’m not in a good place @tyme 

think I’ll go to bed 

Chat tomorrow if you’re around xx

[tyme]

Yes @BlueBay ,

I'll be around tomorrow.

Please do. I'll wait for your tag.

Hugs,

tyme

[BlueBay]

Hi @tyme 

I’m  so not worthy of any help anymore 

I’m past it 

there’s no more helping me 

it’s too late 

seeing a new psychologist later 

don’t even want to go 

I don’t really know who I am anymore 

or what I want in life 

it’s so bad that I’m jealous of people 

I feel I’m doomed for shit to happen 

had to reduce our house price because no one has made an offer 

it’s a huge stress and guilt for me 

[Eve7]

 @BlueBay 💙

[Former-Member]

Morning @BlueBay,

I know these are words on a screen, but I truly mean it when I say you are very worthy of support and to feel peace and hope in your life 💙 I can't begin to imagine all you've experienced, but I can see all the strength you have because you demonstrate that here with us every day.

New psychologist you say? What I hear when I read that is "new" and that to me suggests new beginnings, new opportunities and new hope. Do you think you might be able to give this therapist a go today?

Rhye ☘️

[grayhorn]

@BlueBay 

I can tell how stressed you are, can you be gentle with yourself, just that same as you would be with little A when she’s having a hard time? One tender breath at a time 💜

[tyme]

Hey @BlueBay ,

As promised, I was passing by tonight to check how things are with you.

What are you up to this evening?

tyme

[BlueBay]

Thank you all for your support hugs and love. I’m so appreciative 

I had my appt with new psychologist today. She was ok. Session was a bit triggering talking about my childhood abuse 

all these questions 

talked about my mum as well 

Gosh she’s made my life hard 

came home exhausted 

I can’t think positive or even clearly 

all I want is for all this stress to go away 

I don’t know anything anymore 

I feel defeated lost and overwhelmed with so much fear 

heightened anxiety I can do without 

@tyme @grayhorn @Former-Member @Eve7 @Shaz51 @Snowie @BPDSurvivor @Emelia8 

[Eve7]

Sitting with you @BlueBay  💙💙💙