My Mosaic

[Former-Member]

Good afternoon @Bow so proud of you for noticing what you needed and talking with you psychologist about it. Even though it can be hard to be honest about such difficult times. Well done ❤️ 

If you think going to hospital is going to be best for you, then that choice is yours. I know a lot us have hesitated about it before, so you're not alone. 

A written plan is so helpful when our brains are muddled up. I get like that too and have strategies stuck on my wall.

What are you getting up to tonight?

We're sitting with you,
TuxedoCat

[Bow]

Thanks @Former-Member  im just on my bike. Will watch some tv and probably go to bed early. 

[Former-Member]

@Bow that sounds like a very restful evening of self-care. ❤️ 

[NatureLover]

I hope last night wasn't as distressing @Bow ?

I'm glad you have a clear Safety Plan now 💜

I'm doing OK, thanks...

[Bow]

Inside my head is such a mess

i can’t make sense of things

its so loud and fast

It feels overwhelming 

I can’t stop, cause it gets to much

i need to keep going, keep moving 

in the silence it’s becomes deafening

 in the stillness it becomes unbearable 

the noise…. The arguments

like a drill sergeant barking orders

i try hard to resist

i try hard not to do what it says

but I don’t know for how long I can resist

it’s trying to destroy me that I know

i feel scared of it

scared that it will win

scared that it will all be over soon

i get to the point that of feeling distressed

distressed by the noise and the plans

the thoughts are there all the time

what if impulses take over?

what if it succeeds?

im terrified.  

trying to stay safe

[tyme]

Thank you for sharing your thoughts here @Bow .

I acknowledge your emotional pain, your challenges, your thoughts.

These thoughts and feelings are not falling on deaf ears. I hear you and am sitting with you.

Happy to lend an ear to hear what’s going on for you at the moment.

Kindest,

tyme

[Bow]

All just gets too much sometimes and prn doesn’t do anything to help. 

[tyme]

@Bow ,

Can you think of something else in your bank of strategies?

I’m around and here to listen.

tyme

[Bow]

Gonna potter around the house, try keep busy

thanks @tyme 

[Snowie]

@Bow here with you hon 💗💗