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Just can’t dig myself out of the hole I am in

I just need to vent and get this all out... I am not looking for a magic fix... I just need to get it out

 

Why oh why is it so hard to bounce back

 

as many know... just over a week ago I resigned from a job I had had most of my life.... I couldn't handle the bullying, the victimization and the way I was being treated,so on advice from a union representative I sent in my resignation... two days later I received a letter to say despite me resigning they were terminating me anyway... they also reported me to the registration board and placed a black mark against my name should I try and get another role like the one I had...this has torn me apart psychologically....  all I seem to do is cry... have almost constant panic attacks...  I try to go for a walk to ground myself but have to turn round and come home as I am crying.... every time the phone rings I panic.... an email alert comes in I panic... a message... panic.... 

I have been offered a temporary contract job bu one of the good people I worked with...but just filling out the paperwork is too overwhelming.... 

all I want to do is curl up under the covers and hide from the world.... 

my GP upped my antidepressants... that doesn't seem to be helping.... I have a phsycholgist telehealth session tomorrow... I hope that will help a bit... but I don't hold high hopes

 

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@Lostandalone wrote:

two days later I received a letter to say despite me resigning they were terminating me anyway... they also reported me to the registration board and placed a black mark against my name should I try and get another role like the one I had... 


@Lostandalone  - am really sorry that this has happened to you. 

 

I am also sorry to hear about the constant panic attacks. That's good that your GP has upped your anti-depressants...I hope they kick in soon.

 

Sitting with you in your pain, @Lostandalone ...

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@Lostandalone   I’m so sorry all this is happening to you. It sounds very unfair and cruel..

 

I hope your Telehealth psychologist appointment is helpful today. Sending kind thoughts your way. 💜💜

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Hi @Lostandalone,

Just wanted to check in and see how you're doing today. I hope your appointment helped, and that today was a bit better for you. Let us know how you're travelling Smiley Happy 

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Thanks for checking up on me @Jynx 

 

my telehealth appointment helped a bit.... and then I spent the day being dragged around the shops by a good friend... that helped heaps as it took my mind off things.... then I came home and did a jigsaw to keep me occupied... will see what tomorrow brings 

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@Lostandalone  Really glad to hear it Smiley Very Happy

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gday @Lostandalone

Sounds like a good arvo hey Smiley Happy
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Hi @Lostandalone I am so sorry you are going through this. Thinking of you 💜

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Hi all

 

today is not a good day.... I am still trying to dig... but I think I am digging down rather than up...:

 

surely I should have run out of tears to cry by now... but alas they keep flowing 

 

I am just such a mess...

I can't think straight... 

I can't sleep properly

i don't want to eat... but I have to

i try to do things to distract myself from my dark thoughts... but I can't 

 

I feel like my life is a jigsaw puzzle but pieces are missing... or the wrong pieces are in the box and it will just never fit together .... I stare blankly at it... but nothing fits together

 

i just want to be me again... to smile... to laugh... to enjoy life.... 

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@Lostandalone wrote:

surely I should have run out of tears to cry by now... but alas they keep flowing 

 

I am just such a mess...

I can't think straight... 

I can't sleep properly

i don't want to eat... but I have to

i try to do things to distract myself from my dark thoughts... but I can't 


 

Sorry to hear all this. @Lostandalone ... Smiley Sad

 

Sending you a warm gentle hug (if that's OK? Please ignore if not), and wishes for some improvement in your situation and mental health soon...

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