I can't articulate why I feel so average and depressed

[Anastasia]

I think so @MDT 

I think we forget we're human sometimes?

Well done for the gym and moving dinner, putting your needs first. Go you Hams

 ✔️💛⭐

[MDT]

please do join @MIFANTCARER

[MDT]

cheers @ArtistZ

[MDT]

join up @frog
seems like there is recuring theme hey?

[Anastasia]

@MDT @frog @MIFANTCARER @ArtistZ ❣️

[Tinker67]

hello @MDT 

I'd like to offer congrats on the new job you are starting, but I can understand why you feel average and depressed, you've got so much going on.

Sometimes if I am overwhelmed/overthinking I find it helpful to do a 'brain dump' and write everything down that I'm thinking about (as you have done in your message today) and then categorise each thing that I'm thinking about, and decide if I need to think about it now, or if I can schedule a time to think about it later, when it is more relevant.  Then I put it in my calendar as a future task.  

I wonder how you are going to fit in everything that you want to do, it sounds like with a full time job, another job in analytics, full time study in 2022, and a new relationship, that you might need to invent about 4 extra days in your week to fit it all in?  

I admire your resolve to go to the gym, I need to start swimming again, I've been putting it off.  And yes, great that you changed your plans today and cleared the decks to take pressure off yourself.  Sometimes it truly is all that we need, to be able to breathe and not be rushing off to something. 

[MDT]

Hey @Tinker67
Thank you for your well thought reply

At the moment I'm just outside. Had a reasonably productive day.

Where I live I come to sit on the balcony and look at the green of the surrounds with sunlight in it. I feel peaceful

I like how you said I need to fit an extra 4 days a week 8n to do what I'm doing.

I agree. It just means I need to replace things. Get rid of it maybe. And also some aren't even starting yet.

Perhaps it would be best to search for a deeper answer as to why I feel pressured to do so much.

Maybe it's best right now to do this hey.

[Tinker67]

your green twilight spot on your balcony sounds lovely. Yep, I reckon, just do that. 🙂

[wellwellwellnez]

It's ironic. But sometimes when we kick more goals, we forget that it's a journey. Sometimes (and lately), the better I do the less I give myself a break or a pat on the back. Feels like maybe you're doing the same. I guess new journeys have new dissonances. Guess they always will. Maybe that's okay. Maybe that's part of what makes life's hunger.

[ArtistZ]

Hey @MDT 

Your balcony sounds beauitful 🌳🌞

It does sounds like you put a great deal of pressure on yourself - I'm sort of at the other end of the scale right now because I don't have a formal structure of things that need to get done each day (aside from general living tasks) and I feel a bit lost right now. 
There has to be a happy balance somewhere, I hope?