I can't articulate why I feel so average and depressed

[MDT]

I think I feel overwhelmed with all the things going on in my life at the moment.

While it's good to have "things" going on, I still feel overwhelmed. Think this is due to my mindset and my attitude towards what is happening. 

In a list this is what is happenig:

- I start a new full time job next Monday and I am worried it will be majoirty work from home - which I really do not like 😕 and I am worried that it will effect me negatively because of this fact. I was told there will be 1 day of work in the office, but I really really want that to be working in the office majority of the time. I am worried there are so many apple carts that could be upset

- my analyst role is going okay, but just as I feel that I am really doing some good work it feels like it's going to conflict with my new work which will be quite demanding due to it being full time

- I have started chatting with a girl from an app and I am worred things may be accelerating way too fast. I also feel like it's a "situation" waiting to happen. I really don't know where I stand with any of it, but I am also aware that if I keep on shutting myself out to this sort of thing then it'll be a circle of crap where I end up feeling alone. So I'm just really apprehensive about anything at all really

- The further study next year will be good, but it is full time and it's possibly quite accelerated. That's a bridge I am yet to cross because I still need to get my stupid transcript from the place I was "studying" at this year in order to actually get accepted. Then I also need to wait on the government funding to be approced which could take me all the way to Jan. It's just a "thing" that's hanging over my head and I can't do anything to speed it up because the institution is still taking its own sweet time to do nothing. I'm actually quite angry about it tbh. 

- I feel this week is getting away from me fast and I still have things to do. 

- I want to get back into an exercise regime and it's going to change next week anyway. I am bout to go to gym now to help my mood. 

[Anastasia]

Hi @MDT 

You certainly do have a bit on your plate and I hear you and understand that it is all over whelming. 

I'm sorry you feel average and depressed. I'm not doing well so wanted to just "hang" with you to let you know I see and hear you and can relate to your sentiments as quite often I think about all the things that could go wrong rather than what could go right. I think it's my way of accepting it and preparing for the worst, not sure. 

My psychologist said my anxiety is caused from looking too far ahead at the what ifs. She said to focus on the now, the today and then everything will fall in to place. 

Can we try that together today? 

If it's too much rainbows and lollipops I understand, guess I'm just in need of company myself and yours is always good Hams 🙏

[MIFANTCARER]

Hi @MDT @Anastasia 

Can I join too?  I am feeling a bit down and stressed.  I have so much to do too and seem to be procrasinating.. 

It seems I take one step forward and then 10 steps back..  Im so overwhelmed..

xx

[ArtistZ]

Hey @MDT 

That's a heap of stuff all on at once - fair to feel overwhelmed - I have no decent advice but I'd like to send a shout of support to you 🌻

Also to @Anastasia  and @MIFANTCARER 🌻🌻

[Anastasia]

Hello @MIFANTCARER of course you can 🤗

I am sorry you are feeling this way. A cuppa for you? 

[MIFANTCARER]

Hi @Anastasia 

Yes please,  with scones jam and cream please..  

xx

[Anastasia]

@MIFANTCARER done x

@MDT @ArtistZ 

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[frog]

Hey @MDT I'm in a similar headspace. Trying not to overthink it, but also just tired of the prolonged average/depressed space I'm in. Although there's lots of positives for you, that's still a lot happening! Hope you feel better in the not too distant future.

I'd like to join the overwhelmed tea party too @Anastasia @MIFANTCARER 

Hi @ArtistZ 

[Anastasia]

Hello @frog it's good to see you. My last message is a bit odd. Can't edit it and my tea party photos didn't work! Not sure why it has that thread listed, any hoo...I'll try for pics again 😁

@frog @MDT @MIFANTCARER @ArtistZ 

[MDT]

Hi @Anastasia
that's a good point and yes I think you're right about that. I am probably doing the same actually and thinking too far ahead about the "what ifs"

I went to gym and it helped a bit. Moved dinner plan as well to tomorrow.

I guess we just need time at times hey?