im back..... i think

[Anony18]

Hi @outlander. How are you today? At the war memorial right now. Starting get slight anxiety for some reason

[outlander]

hi @Anony18 war memorials have that impact on everyone i think. ots great to see you are there and supporting the soldiers though RIP to thmem

im still feeling sick. when i eat i feel bloated and feel nauseous but i dont throw up so its weird

ive cleaned out three paddocks (part time job 3)

and took care of the holiday horses that are with me atm ( part time job 2)

and now im having lunch and resting for abit and then getting stuck into house work and studying

[outlander]

Down down down again @Owlunar @Shaz51 @Anony18 @Former-Member

[Shaz51]

what happen to our plan @outlander xx

still sitting with you my friend listening to you read

[outlander]

im still trying to take it one step at a time but everything seems to hit me so hard all the time

my sisters been out all day with her friends which isnt the problem but she keeps rubbing in that she saw my old horse and her pop is telling her to get on here and shes excited and she gave her a brush today and she fed her and yadda yadda yadda

im trying very hard to be happy for her and not to turn bitter but i cant help it- that horse is my livelihood and it makes me upset when i cant see her or when other people ride her or anything

i keep goignt back to what ive already read and forgetting what im reading- its too loud now, both my sisters are home and my youngest one is annoying the shite out of me and mums boyfriends yelling on the phone and mums banging around the house

OMFG IVE HAD IT- ONE THING AFTER ANOTHER- IM READY TO MOVE OUT OF THIS HOUSE- I CANT WAIT IM GETTING ANOTHER JOB AND MOVING OUT I CNAT TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!!!! @Shaz51

[Shaz51]

that is very annoying @outlander 

it is hard i know xx and it would be good if the sisters could not come in you room , so you could have somewhere to call your own

[outlander]

Ive literally just chucked a hissy fit qnd thre everything and shoved everything in my path and there goes my hard work of house chores.
Glad ive got seconds of my study notes cause they are everywhere now @Faith-and-Hope @shaza51

[outlander]

@Shaz51 above msg

[Shaz51]

Wow @outlander , that is plain rotten

[outlander]

i did that @Shaz51 not my sisters

im so over everything - i want out