@BPDSurvivor It's weird when things like that happen - you are thinking of someone & then you get a text or msg from them. We must be on the same wavelength atm.
I use 'quicksand' to describe how I feel quite
often - I said it yesterday to my Mum, the more
I fight to get out, the further is slip down. You are
right, I need to just hold on and stop trying to fight feelings/thoughts so much. At this time, I need to just sit with them.
Quality sleep is so crucial for me. I've been like that all my life, even when not battling major depression/anxiety. I'm very concerned that now, I'm dependant on medication to sleep. It's another thing to talk to the psych about this week when we catch up. Insomnia is a known side effect of this new med. As is weight gain - both of which I've noticed very early into taking it. And when the new med doesn't appear to be working yet, and you have side effects already, it makes it challenging for me to keep persevering with it. But, I have to give it at least 6 weeks, to see if it does help at all.
Thank you so very much for your kind words, they have really helped me y'day & this morning.
I feel comfort knowing you are sitting with me, I feel less alone and helpless. It's an hour by hour journey for me at the moment. I truely wish it wasn't, as I feel I've wasted the last 18 months of my life being so unwell. Hopefully soon I'll get back to day by day, then improve from there. And who knows, I may be a success story such as yourself!!
