NEED HELP WITH RAGE!

[Appleblossom]

Good on you @Change123

I remember having a few bosses in small businesses .. and ethics were very low on their agenda .. just profit .. its good you know your stuff and are not scared to call it straight.

Yeah it can be a problem taking a salary cut ... decisions ..

[PeppiPatty]

Dear @Change123

Okay, First, I probably need the @Appleblossom and @Neb @NikNik and @Shaz51

to either agree with me or not. 

Peppi Patty's viewpiont: 

This is your  life.

You have gone through enough with dealing with your different triggers. 

What are you doing to keep yourself self aware ? 

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When I write the last sentence, I am forever reminded of myself. Yes. It's true. I think I know my life and I must hold back because I can't do certain things anymore like I did. I must care for myself in a compassionate way now. It's very difficult.

PP 

[Shaz51]

Hello @Change123xx

how was you day today ??

[Change123]

Hi @PeppiPatty@Shaz51

You dont know how proud of myself I was for keeping to only posting once in a day.  Rage came a few times yesterday with work (ie. I dont know how to do my job properly because I allowed a "pharmacist to give a carers certificate" - they are legal and after the many many phonecalls I made to verify this I was correct but they still wont let me pay the employee" Now we are harrassing this employee!

Then another lady the receptionist who is 63 was supposed to come in for 3 full days as she is only part time 3 days 4 hours per day.  When I rang this morning to tell her (she gets 1 day notice) she says that she is ill and wsa going to the doctors today and will advise.  Well because of the above sick leave drama with the pharmacist the owner (male) told me to ring her back and say dont come in for the rest of the week - she is very pissed off.  He told me this is because he is sick of being taking sick leave - WTF!!!

Anyway instead of posting I let the rage come over me and worked through it yesterday and didnt need to post.  Infact I t hink it helped not to post straight away as it didnt feed my rage.

Today I'm just down and over it completely......

See more on emotional discipline thread soon.

[PeppiPatty]

the posts comes in two ways......

by the way... Im reading other post.........

1. it is safe to be your.....

triggered

frustrated

abandoned 

uncared for self here.

and you will be treated as we see you which is really you. 

what would you think is the reason why you can post your feelings out one time ?? 

[Change123]

Hi @PeppiPatty

I'm just trying to learn to deal with things on my own rather than everytime I get angry having to vent it by posting it.  Its just something I thought I would try as I found yesterday it helped to get over by not putting into words on a post straight away - I just calmed down quicker for whatever reason. I guess I'm trying to "grow up" in a hurry! 

I am focusing more on my self care, with work I'm stuck - I'm the only fiancial earner my partner doest work or get benefits so its all on me.  Where I live there are not many jobs around and having to take a massive pay cut will cause us more stress.  To be honest I like where I work, I like the location I like everything EXCEPT THE 2 OWNERS. I am checking on SEEK daily at the moment but as yet no luck.

Anyway I just wanted to brag even though the owners said "I dont know my job as I didnt question a pharmacist certificate enough and they are not paying it" the fair work ombudsman just rang me and gee I was totally correct will see if they pay him now - probably  not!

@PeppiPatty I do like that you question my thinking as it does make me evaluate things more

[Change123]

Just adding to my above post WOW she wont even listen to the Fair Work Ombudsman - she told me not to pay him sick leave.

I guess she thinks she makes up all the laws in the world and will only obey what suits WOW mind still boggles - not angry just realise exactly who I'm dealing with  A COMPLETE FRICKEN NUTTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Appleblossom]

Yeah as I was saying .. just cos someone's a boss doesnt mean they are sane .. 

[PeppiPatty]

But @Change123

You can act sane. 

What do you get out of this?

Who is the nutter here ? 

Are you the one judged when you report her to the Ombusman ? 

My only advice is to keep calm. I apologise to write this. 

[Change123]

@PeppiPatty@Appleblossom@Shaz51

OK -I'm doing my post now.

I apoligse if I have misunderstood but are you saying by: Who is the nutter here ? 

That I'm the nutter?????????????????????????????????????

I have reread this post multiple times and stopped myself from answering for about 2-3 hours so I could calm down.

If this is what you are saying basically "how dare you"! So any person who has a bullying boss and is in a position where they just cant leave the job due to financial committments etcetc - they are at fault????????????? If there was a job near by I would fricken take it BUT THERE ISNT AND I GET NOTHING BUT GRIEF OUT OF THIS! 

I'M NOT GOING TO JUSTIFY MYSELF!

I was encouraged by @Shaz51 to keep putting posts here so others can learn from it - especially dealing with a boss like mine.

Very  very disappointed by that comment.