Just checking in.

[outlander]

Everything will be ok @CheerBear but if the news is the harder answer then ill need to work through that first. Its hard having the answer lying within just that one response. You know how everyone has their wish in life? This one been mine for about 7 yrs and its sitting right in front of me with its fate lying in one response but its one of those complicated topics to explain if that makes sense. I should here back from them within a few days or they may choose to completely ignore it as well so its a tricky spot right now.


Ooh gosh it sounds like alot of mess but so much fun too!:face_with_rolling_eyes: I might do that on one of the days ive got the kids but they can do it outside. Thats ok about the tree, the theme isnt all that important really. 💜

[CheerBear]

I don't need to know the details to hear and understand that it is important to you @outlander and waiting and wondering about important-to-us stuff can cause anxiety and be unsettling. Big hugs. I hope the outcome is the one you want it to be ❤

Outside is a much better idea! I should have thought of that haha. Our tree is pretty great just as it is this year 🙂

[outlander]

Thanks @CheerBear your so lovely ❤

Haha ive learnt my lesson with messy things now! If it can be sone outside thats where its done. We havent done our tree yet as im still having a big clearout over the next day or so so will wait till after. Pops asked me to set the lights up though. A few have fallen from the roof of the carport so will have to get up there and fix it up and then i can turn them on. They are pops favourite thing so im always adding to the lights collection of i find something on sale or secondhand but in good working order.
Do you and LF like going around looking at houses wirh lights on them?

[outlander]

Im going to head off for abit and try and get these few rows done. Might catch you a little later @CheerBear
❤❤

[Mazarita]

Good morning, @CheerBear. 

[CheerBear]

Morning @Mazarita ❤ How are you this morning?

I've been in bed but awake for a while listening to rain on the roof and the road. The birds sound extra cheery this morning.

[Mazarita]

I sometimes find the sound of rain nurturing, @CheerBear. Glad to hear the birds are enjoying it too. 

I'm going fine this morning. Just tired as I have been getting little sleep at night lately. Making up for some of it during the day, which is probably what I'll do today too. Still recovering from Friday's big outing.

How about you?

[CheerBear]

It's a lovely sound @Mazarita. I wish I could record the sounds in the sky this morning and share them with you.

Were you able to have much rest yesterday?

I'm feeling pretty sad this morning and nervous about the second medication, but understanding they're both probably fairly normal and OK things to be feeling.

[Mazarita]

I find rain sometimes brings emotional release with it, @CheerBear. Sounds like you are sitting okay with your feelings, and have a good attitude to them. I'm not aware of what the effects of the medication might be, as there was no such option in my past experience. 

I had a couple of extra hours sleep in the afternoon yesterday, which brought the overall tally up to about five or six hours, I'm guessing, maybe less. I'm losing track of it all a bit at this point. I'm aware I'm a bit hyper on the inside, especially about things with my videos (there's a bunch of other exciting things happening now too that I haven't mentioned).

The sleep deprivation is probably a bit of bipolar hypomania, though it's not extremely full on. For one thing, my body at this age tends to succumb to exhaustion much more in response to higher nervous energy in me. Still, it's a contrast to how I was not that long ago, sleeping a great deal every day. Keeping an eye on it and trying to bring it towards balance as much as I can, but overall just viewing it as part of my general tendency to swing one way or the other pretty easily. I think I get (over) stimulated by experiences much more easily than the average joe or josephine. 

It would be lovely to hear the sounds in your sky. Your words give me some idea of it though. 

[CheerBear]

Five/six hours all up makes things tricky @Mazarita, especially after a big day the day before. I have learned heaps about bipolar through being here and listening to experiences like yours. It seems you need to be particularly on to symptoms and manage them early before they take over. I can imagine that could get difficult sometimes, to be aware of and consider any shifts and potential triggers. Thinking that if there was a choice between this level of energy may be more OK feeling than a total lack of it.

It's so great you have your videos and are enjoying it all at the moment though. I'm really hoping that I'll have some time and headspace to get back in to my crochet soon as I need that creative outlet.

We have a pretty quiet day planned after a bigger one yesterday. It's much cooler today and wet so it will be an inside day. Lots of washing to fold and some movies for us I think. How's yours looking?