My sports teams have done well this year just the rest of life with so much loss has really sucked @Anastasia 
It has helped us both then @Snowie so pleased for that, and so grateful for you 
Goodnight sweet Snowie - sleep well Hon
@Former-Member would you like to join us here - would love to chat with you and support you this evening Hon.
@Snowie @Anastasia @Shaz51 Thank you for yesterday and last night
I ended up crying myself to sleep after our beautiful @Faith-and-Hope was so nice to me that it broke me ...I did expect that day to come eventually but did not expect it last night. For weeks and weeks I have been holding up as best I could but also feeling very numb to everything ...that is my way to cope when life is beyond hard so it does protect me. I know today is going to continue to be super hard especially as I have a massive headache from last night. I will take some pain relief (and be careful doing so) but the likelihood is it won't help much. I also expect there will be plenty of naps to help get through the day ...being awake and having to face life is just not on the agenda today - too hard. I do hope that last night has gotten a lot of that added stress, grief and pain out but I can feel the slide happening within. Maybe I do need to hit the bottom of that well again to be able to work my way out but knowing that is where I am presently heading I am also hoping I can pull myself back up before it gets too bad. After last night I am not sure but making it through the night (as hard as that was) is maybe a positive - so who knows!
