Am Not Coping

[Faith-and-Hope]

Not as teary @BryanaCamp, but they are lurking.   A lack of diagnosis and therefore treatment. has caused massive changes to our life, which are becoming permanent, in that some things can’t / won’t be reversed, even if an intervention were to happen now.  It is something I have to come to terms with because it is what it is, but changes aren’t always for the better or worse ..... sometimes they are just different, and new Lessing’s can be found in them.  I think it’s the inevitable feelings of anger, frustration, disappoint and unintended (as in not intentionally relinquished) loss that are not easy to process, especially as it’s still all so open-ended.  But what can you do ?  The nature of this illness is hidden and not clearly defined.  It may never be diagnosed either, so I have to find ways to get on with my new reality.

Tears are “par for the course”, and are part of the healing, so I tend to just accept them when they are around.

Thank you though, and yes, less teary today 😏🌷

[Zoe7]

You are going to your nephew's birthday dinner too @BryanaCamp - that is awesome. I hope he loves the present you got and that you actually have a good time. Yes 'gotta get out of the house' is often good to say to ourselves when we are feeling low - helps break up the monotony and boredom and often gives us just a little spark. So pleased you are doing both things today 

@Faith-and-Hope 💕🌹

[Faith-and-Hope]

So am I @BryanaCamp ^^^ .... what @Zoe7  said.  Pleased that you are getting out and about and going to visit your nephew, and I am catching up with my western baby dragons shortly too.

Gotta keep keeping on ..... and unexpected things can happen to spark a little joy in our day.

[Zoe7]

@Faith-and-Hope You spark joy in my day everytime I see you here - just sayin' 

[Faith-and-Hope]

Whoar ..... now I’m all soggy again @Zoe7 .... 😏💦

You’re one gorgeous fur-baby-mumma..... ❣️

[Zoe7]

@Faith-and-Hope 💐🌺🌷🌸 You are amazing Hon - don't ever doubt that 💕

Now wipe away those tears and have a great time with your baby dragons then tell me all about it later - you deserve all the happiness you can get when you can get it 😘

[Zoe7]

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Well today was full on. As soon as I arrived I was informed that I would be taing the 1/2 class as the relief teacher had also called in sick. Luckily it is a class I know quite well and had a little time later in the morning to organise work. One of the other 1/2 teachers helped me get a few things organised and then we spent most of the afternoon together showing the kids how to make meringue ...changing from liquid to solid and the stages in between. 

I actually really enjoyed the day and made me want to be back on class again just a little more. The assistant principal thanked me several times for taking the class and when she came in near the end of the day all the kids were super quiet and working so well - I was impressed with them myself. It is always hard when you have no preparation time but I know that the support is there so it makes those days so much easier to get through.

The rest of the week is going to be all over the place because it is NAPLAN week. I think I have the grade 4s when the 3s and 5s are doing the testing but I will need to go in earlier tomorrow to sort that out because what I was given this afternoon does not include my timetable - I know it has been worked out because I was in the room when it was being done last week - so will sort that out tomorrow.

Feeling very tired but also still running a little on adrenalin tonight - think I will crash super early though.

Sending my love and a few hugs to all those that need it today and very much thinking of those that are struglling or finding things in their life hard at the moment. 

[TAB]

Thanks for tagging me and dont know how you do it @Zoe7 I am in eat sleep drink ok walk sometimes mode

[Faith-and-Hope]

💚💐🌷💕 @Zoe7 👋

[Zoe7]

Sometimes that is all we can do @TAB 

@Faith-and-Hope How has your day been today Hon - feeling any better than the weekend?