Am Not Coping

[Zoe7]

I'm totally drained @Faith-and-Hope I think I'll have to see the images tomorrow. Going to lay down here next to Toby. I wish I was as at peace as he is right now! My eyes are pretty sore also so not looking at a computer screen any longer may help.

I will do my very best to check in with you in the morning. If I don't manage it I really hope you have a safe and enjoyable trip down south tomorrow. I know there will be around 24 hours of NO F&H - how will I survive lol - I will be thinking of you though Hon. Be careful, stay safe and enjoy the time with D3.

Sending you a little extra love and hugs tonight sweetheart...

Zoe 

[Faith-and-Hope]

Thank you @Zoe7 .... 💜

I will be in touch across the morning until I am out of signal range.  

Cuddle that ball of love next to you and snuggle in for the night .... I will be holding you close too .....

Have a gentle night sweetheart .....

[utopia]

@Zoe7. Even I of the MaFS addiction - draw the line at watching the Batchelor. Far too much bitchiness

[Zoe7]

@utopia I can completely understand why you wouldn't want to watch the Bachelor. This is only the second time I have watched the Bachelor/Bachelorette. I watched the last series because of who the Bachelorette was. I was more used to seeing her read the nightly news down here in Tassie and she was very likeable (and a good news presenter). The Bachelor this year is basically the one she 'rejected' at the end - and I hope you are sitting down for this part....... he is adorable (yes I said that about a man!!!!!!)

@Faith-and-Hope It was by no means a gentle night Hon. I am very shaky this morning - both mentally and physically. I cannot see anymore for today than to stay curled up on the couch with Toby and get through the day. 

[Faith-and-Hope]

@Zoe7 ..... 💚💐💕

I am sorry it wasn't a gentle night ....... I have flowers for your jar this morning ...... and I found them in "our" colours ......

[Owlunar]

Hi @Faith-and-Hope and @Zoe7

I feel like sending you girls something in your colours too

They are such peaceful colours

I can certainly understand you not wanting to watch The Bachelor - it's a bit like a major publication of an Agony Aunt - and horribly repetitious - hasn't this guy been a bachelor before - aw - the pain of it all

I don't understand these girls either - I don't watch it but I have in the past - and then - can we ever miss the advertisement - oh - the agony - these girls seem to always want the bachelor to know more about themselves when I think the long-term strategy would be to find out more about him

And they all get so snaky and narky - oh - it is so great to have a recorder so I have a bunch of programmes of a more educating nature to watch

Faith - my thoughts etc are still with you and the WH and Baby Dragons adventures - and Zoe - I know you are still battling with a vicious of emotional and physical pain

So - I am wishing you the best and hope your day can be the best possible under the circumstances

Dec

[Zoe7]

Thankyou Hon - just what I needed this morning - might print that one and sit near your rocks 

I have been busy working on something for you to take away with you today - hope you like it @Faith-and-Hope ...

[Zoe7]

Hi @Owlunar I need to tell you that I often think about you and hope you are doing ok but I know you understand how hard it is to 'connect' with people when life is not great.

As for the Bachelor - these girls would already know so much about him as he was on the last The Bachelorette and has been in the media doing many interviews since. I do agree with both you and Utopia - some of the girls there are definitely 'bitchy' and most likely only there for themselves and what they can get out of being on tv!!!!! I personally don't understand how anyone could put themselves so out-in-the-open and on-display like these people do - I don't think I will ever get that. But the show has had many long-term relationships develop that are still ongoing so there must be something in it!!!

@Owlunar I also record it and watch it later - so I can skip through the ads and all the boring or 'bitchy' bits - don't need to see all that!

I hope you are doing ok and today shines plenty of light your way...

Zoe

[Faith-and-Hope]

I have to wait for it to come through now @Zoe7 ...... that will keep me out of mischief for a little while ..... 😏

I had my hair cut a couple of days ago (trimmed at least) and the hairdresser said she would curl it for me this morning. I was going to take the spray chalk to her and ask her to spray it in too, but guess what ?

WH didn't go for a walk this morning ..... 😳

S2 had a follow-up apt with the pdoc yesterday ..... just to see how he coped with the news of the piano teacher the day before. The pdoc has been taking WH into the last 5mins of the appointments for a quick parenting tip or two ...... yesterday when they came back home S2 chatted with me where I was sitting at the table for a minute, then when he walked off WH came in and gave me a barely-there HUG while I was sitting there and said "thank you" before turning ion his heel and hurrying away. I said "you're welcome .... but for what ?" just very gently ..... and he mumbled something clearly intended not to be heard as he strode off.

???! ....... 😳

Something is happening.

[Zoe7]

oh wow @Faith-and-Hope that is pretty huge. Firstly the slight hug and thankyou and secondly not going for his walk. The tides seem to be turning Hon but we know with that will come many fierce waves, unseen undertows and lots of strong swimming.

Do you still have time to go to the hairdresser before you leave today - or is that impossible with WH being home? Would D3 be able to spray it in your hair for you? (I know you only want your hair curled to be 'just like me' lol lol lol)

It seems like S2 is coping much better than expected with the news of his piano teacher. Is he losing interest now or do you still see a passion within him to continue with someone else?

As for WH mumbling something not meant to be heard.... the mini hug was a start... forget the after 'noise' - I'm sure he doesn't know how to 'handle' this all himself - so a little self-protection after affection to balance it out maybe!!!