A Life of Trauma and Tragedy (Possibly Triggering Content)

[Emelia8]

Thanks so much @Appleblossom @Eve7 @Lee82 @Faith-and-Hope @Sans911 😊🌼🌹

@Faith-and-Hope your picture is not up yet, so I will come back and check it out later. Love to you and cuddles for your cute cat.

@Sans911 thanks beautiful.  Hubbys neurologist apt over the video (MyVirtualCare) system went pretty well thanks.  We have been advised to change some of his meds and to alter the timing of some others.  He is of the opinion that many of the issues he is having now, is more likely to be as a result of brain damage from his prolonged bouts of encephalitis, rather than from Parkinsons related dementia.  Which is a good thing, because it should mean that it wont get progressively worse, but more likely to remain stable.  Thankful for small mercies.  How have you been since your last update a couple of days ago?

Emelia 😊

[Anastasia]

@Emelia8 

[Emelia8]

Those flowers are simply beautiful @Anastasia . My Mum would particularly love them, I know.

I have photos of my Mums grave from her funeral in July 2019. Obviously I cant be there live today to visit her on her birthday, as the cemetery is over 6 hrs drive away.

So I looked at my photos, and the stunning flowers she had on the day. Mum loved flowers, all sorts, but especially pink ones. The brighter the better. Emma also loved pink. So your flowers @Anastasia were a great choice. 😄

I also have photos of my little (11yo) niece's headstone, and my second (unborn) baby niece's little plot too. They are all buried right alongside each other. All together and keeping each other company I'm sure.

So I did a virtual visit with all of them this morning via my photos. It's a small country cemetery, just outside of a little country town (total population approx 160). So I had the place to myself. Just me, my thoughts and my memories. 

Emelia 🌷🌻

[Peri]

Dear @Emelia8 ,

no need to apologise for not being around much, besides I think you are about quite a bit.  I have not been around much either , I have been very preoccupied and tired.   I have not been a support to the people here who matter to me and who offer me support.  

The anniversary of your mother’s death is a sad one.  I still grieve for my mother and she died in 2005. And recently the grief has come back quite strongly.i sometimes don’t see the point in why we get so into the future when the people we have loved have left us. I , like you and many others, loved my mother very much and shared some fantastic life with her.

i am glad Holly is ok so far,so I hope the test results come back with good results.

the floods over there must be awful to experience.  I would never cope with something like that happening to my home I really feel for people so badly effected by this. And the poor animals.

you are very good to your husband, doing so much for him, I hope he appreciates how much you do.

i am sorry I can’t write much longer here but I am not in a very good place right now.

but I think of you a lot.

peri

[BlueBay]

No need to apologise. You've had so much going on @Emelia8  

I do think of you snd what you're going through and I wish it was easier for you. Less stress. 
thanks for update xxx

[Former-Member]

(((((@Emelia8))))) my mum passed the year before yours, and dad December. A couple of days back I really felt my dad's presence with me when repairing the van bed. He was always fixing things and said to me "I'm with you, ya doin' great" Another day I was making a cuppa remembering another positive moment from teens, and burst into tears to recall how heblovedbus all. I miss him. The world just isn't the same without our parents 😢 i often Light a candle by a flower from your garden for my mum. She loved her garden. You Be gentle on your souls Em 💙

[Bow]

Hope your day is a little bright @Emelia8 

[Owlunar]

@Emelia8

I haven't been in much over the last few days either - I have been thinking about you being flooded in though and your husband getting home and being like a bear with a sore head - that would make everything harder  - and you do so much for him

What a champion you are!!?

I hope little Holly is okay  - our pets can be our best friends at such times 

And it's your Mum's birthday - yes - we do have these anniversaries - they are hard dates - we can tell ourselves we won't let it get to us but even if we actually forget the date the memories sneak up on us - I hear you

I am getting "the jab" on Monday - they have a clinic set up where I see my doctor - he had a cancelation for Monday when I saw him on Wednesday - I do have the luck of the Irish - it's great to be in a group of people who are high on the list but I am aware of the crowds behind me still waiting

I'll catch up later - all the best - champion Em

All the best up there in the floods 

This is one of my enhanced photos taken during the bush-fires last yeat

Dec

Fire Crystals

[Eve7]

Here’s some more flowers for your mum @Emelia8 

You must have had an amazing mother ‘cos she did well raising you 💖

[Snowie]

Good afternoon @Emelia8 

Hoping your day is going well.

Lots of love and hugs 💜💜💜