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β27-01-2023 11:37 AM
β27-01-2023 11:37 AM
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Just a brief popping by.
I was worried about you, as i knew things were not tenable, and you were being so supportive on the forum but I knew things were very hard. Hope its not too stalkerish to post this. Love that you are a cat mama. Did not read whole thread. Just keep being you. I learn from different ways of emotional expression.
Cheers Apple
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β27-01-2023 12:31 PM
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β27-01-2023 02:30 PM - edited β27-01-2023 02:44 PM
β27-01-2023 02:30 PM - edited β27-01-2023 02:44 PM
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@tonys ...mate, I love you too. Always.
I AM
as
I SEE
As I SEE
I Am,
Me
I AM Not
I
SEA
I AM
Not
I am Me
I am Here
Now
I AM Not
There
There is dream
There is hope
There is God
In Me
I AM Fear
I AM Pain
I am Regret
. .. A SHAM ED
Pity
Ugly
Beneath
Under
I feel like sin
And pain
I hurt
The fear
Feel hard in
I love
It hurts
Feel,
..
......
Please annoint her
Bless Her
Heart
Mind
Spirit
Skin
inside.
..within .
I AM dark
I flood with love
Your Here
Here is Me
Wound
I Lay
I Kneal
I Look
I Can't
I'm quiet
I Bleed.
Blood
It Seeps
I Hope
I Dream
I Want
I Feel
I'm More Now
than I could ever
I'm
Me
I Hurt
More ..Now!!
It's Over
Deceit
I Lie
I love
I hurt
I Need
More now
It hurts
I Feel
My Feet
Numb &
Dumb
They don't want me
They Want Too!
Feel
Walk Out
Of me
Trapped in a mirror
Out of me
I wasted the Time
I had before
I fell & hurt
My toe
My
knee, Who is He.. ?
Hold MY Heart, .. open now
Soooo ... TightLY
Bring knee
Sore Legs
in chest
Hollow...
I Grieve
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β27-01-2023 03:28 PM
β27-01-2023 03:28 PM
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@maddison Feel as much as you need to, but waste no coin on regret , remember.... regret has no value.... Thankyou for the tunes you sent me..
I am going to journey to the end of the, Illanis Morreset road and then, Sia is new to me. I think much more is behind this little window you have opened.
I may have mentioned before that I made an underground room a few years back and it is where I keep the only piece of furniture that was not a, rubbish tip rescue.
My stereo, or as the man who sold it to me likes to call it,... hi fidelity unit...
So when a piece of music comes in , well that no small thing here..
I sit in the dark watching the valves on my phase linear amp glow into life, and then magic fills the dark.
Its the small things that we forgot how to love that still love us back.... A smile.... A cloud
A pure voice words from places.... we cant begin to imagine the birthplace of their creation.
Thats why we know, hope exists,..... even in the dark.
Some sounds for you that always make me smile. I cant do links but , here goes.
Sway my way by Amy shark
Take on me.. Video version.. by A ha.
Kiss me by sixpence none the richer...
And ...... the whole of the moon . . with Lyrics... . . by the Water boys..
the words mean a lot to me... . . . . . depends on the light,..... I, shine on them.
I googled the word muse Knowing how I feel about men, I don't think you realize what a compliment that is for me, thankyou.
Now after lunch, I have to figure out how to fix my cool room, and while my hands are botching up the job I might start thinking of a way to a easier life...
Gonna start googleing sail boats and see where that leads.
Don't do what I do and loose your self at sea my friend.
tonys moon base one
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β27-01-2023 10:24 PM
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β27-01-2023 10:57 PM
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I don't know what you need @tonys You are ALWAYS welcome to ask me, tell me. I'm here 4 YOU. π
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β28-01-2023 02:19 PM - edited β28-01-2023 02:30 PM
β28-01-2023 02:19 PM - edited β28-01-2023 02:30 PM
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Hello Apple,
I love ur cute name.
I hope I didn't leave you hanging. I hope you can recognise, & I'm absolutely sure you can - that I'm in a process of defining, & re defining my self, my boundaries, my needs...Me.
I think you are good for me. I think you are a person who wants to support me in claiming & joyfully celebrating all these pieces we women ignored & almost forgot.
I'm sorry I made you feel like you had use the word 'stalkerish'. I think I know you were saying it in a gentle approach. Its very nice to read that you perceive I'm being supportive. My confidence is building. The words are healing. I'm grateful for you.
You have my permission to read the whole thread π»
Thankyou for validating me.
Expression. I honour your advice.
I do Music, Dancing, Journaling
-has variety
*Releasing blocked thoughts, emotions, a rescue/emergency
*Creative writing
*Self Work, learning who I am
*Existence
* Words I cannot write here
* Letters I cannot write here
* Directions
* Reclamation
I walk (not lately) , talk with supports, sit on back step, lay on grass - the ground here is too hard, & I like to look at the beach, the horizon.β€οΈπ
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β28-01-2023 03:05 PM
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β28-01-2023 06:17 PM
β28-01-2023 06:17 PM
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Dear tonys,
This letter is awkward. I feel awkward. Vulnerability is new. I'm trying to choose very carefully the correct words I want to say to to you.
Every word in my head feels wrong. How can I say... This is not flowing out easily like i want it too. I want to say
Now I am stuck again. Each time I try to say anything I pause - pen lifted from paper as I search my mind for the. and. I will get this out.
I need help.
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β28-01-2023 06:42 PM
β28-01-2023 06:42 PM
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Take some deep breaths @maddison and remember - vulnerability takes time and practice. It gets easier. And in my own experience, it truly does take strength to be vulnerable. So take your time with it. Here if you need π